HI GUYS MISSED ME?

Anyways this is a last and final post to tell ya'll that i'm shutting this blog for good and migrating to a new address which will soon be known. will be keeping ya'll updated on it. if anyone's following that is ;)

Low Millions

i won't call you baby anymore,

won't call you baby like i did before.

won't call you baby anymore.

Eleanor.

Sorry?

sorry is something we all have to be at some point to learn true 'moral values' and people who are not sorry end up with self grandourous beliefs,narcissistic tenancies and hurt a lot of people
(and i know plenty of people like this, and plenty people who got like this due to never being asked to really be sorry )

if the person did this once, forgiving them will ease your mind thats true,
that is indeed a power they cant take away from you
but if they do it again, that will ease nothing.
and by doing it again they then are taking the power away from you

the person will have some problem that is making them internally angry and taking it out on you.
forgiving them every time only invites you to be hurt every time, invites them to never heal whatever problem they have and thats not helping anyone.

forgiveness is something that does have to be earned sometimes
you cant go about forgiving everyone for everything all the time,

look at society
there would be no punishment, no law, society would be pretty much anarchy.
people would do what ever they want with no fear of reprisal and confrontation
and those reprisals, the consequences are part of the reasons we dont all go around breaking the law willy nilly

is is really fair fair that you are a 'good person' per say who can be sorry when you hurt someone but be hurt by someone who doesn't care enough about you to be sorry for that?.

some people do things to hurt on purpose they dont need forgiveness, they need to be taught like a child stealing another's sweet that that kind of thing is wrong,

forgiveness like everything else in life has its time and place.

only you will know if this person deserves your forgiveness, and only you will know if they have done or are likely to do this again, and only you can know if forgiving them will make you happy.

to forgive someone who isnt sorry, although it depends on what has happened , what they did, why they did it etc,
i can say when i had to forgive someone for something that ruined my life, and who wasnt sorry
i found that realizing and accepting that the person wasnt really to blame was what helped heal me and helped me eventually forgive them.

forgive them by realizing that really internally they have a problem that causes them to act out,
that maybe it isnt their fault (if that is true, ie maybe they have a mental illness or a disability)
that maybe they are doing all they can to 'fix' themselves (as long as they really are)
if they accept they have a problem and ask for help its always easier to empathise and consider what they must be feeling and to forgive them

Another problem with not forgiving someone is that it gives them power over you. Think about it. You're upset, maybe even raging about what they did. Probably spending much more time and effort on it than it's worth. Point in fact, you are giving them power over you because you are choosing to devote time and effort to the problem.

Read more: http://wiki.answers.com/Q/How_do_you_forgive_someone_who_is_not_even_sorry#ixzz1G2GcbGQ2

It is a DECISION to forgive a person, regardless of action.

-taken from wikianswers-

Careful

I settled down
A twisted up frown
Disguised as a smile, well
You would have never known

I had it all
But not what I wanted
Cause home/hope for me
Was a place uncharted
And overgrown

you'd make your way in
I resist you just like this

You can't tell me to feel
The truth never set me free
So, I did it myself

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out a little more
More
More
More, more

Open your eyes like i opened mine
It's only the real world.
A life you will never will know

Shifting your weight
To throw off the pain
Well you can ignore it
But, only for so long

You look like I did
You resist me just like this

You can't tell me to heal
And, it hurts remembering
How it felt to shut down

Can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out a little more
More
More
More, more

The truth never set me free
The truth never set me free
The truth never set me free
So, I'll do it myself

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out

Can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out
More
More
More
More, more

Not a believer? Boy oh boy we're going to hell.

first thing's first

" If i sold my house and my car, had a big garage sale and gave all my money to the church, would i get into heaven?" I asked the children in my Sunday school class.

"No!" the children all answered.

"if i cleaned the church everyday, mowed the yard and kept everything neat and tidy, would i get to heaven?"

Again, the answer was, "No!"

" Well," i continued, "then how can I get to heaven?"

A five yo boy shouted, "You've gotta be dead!"

-Jan Cupp (Reader's Digest 02')

Now why didn't i think of that.

3000 miles to a U turn.

Once again, i'm in a bitch mood.

I simple DO NOT UNDERSTAND girls sometimes.

albeit being one, for what, twenty years.

Nuh-uh.

Don't tell me that you don't really want something, and turns out that in the end, you really did want it, lament and whine about to another person bout how terrible of a person i am to not offer you, which i clearly did, not that you listen, and then only to have it bite me back in the arse for a thing that i clearly did offer you.

For the last time, i do not friggin read your rat-assed minds.

If you do want to whine, friggin tell it to my face. geez. it's really that easy!

you've known me for TEN YEARS.

isn't it time to stop pretending to be all that i-is-shy-to-use-your-stuff hogwash?

Besides, if you really did want it, you wouldn't have drag your heavy bum all over the place and hop to the web to find out about it.

that's all. i'm done ranting.

fudging world.

Another lovely blog for sewing♥!

http://mairuru.blogspot.com

Jap Lady with a kid nicknamed Tomato. SO ADORABLEH!♥♥

check it~!

David Caruso aka Horatio Cane.

If you've watched CSI you would love this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=glvGfQnx3DI&feature=related

and these...

"Horashio, this man was found dead in mcdonalds Early in the monring"

- I guess He didn't ....

*puts on glasses*

- have a happy Meal

YEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAH !!!!!!!!

"We found the victim in the casino parking lot. It seems that the killer defecated on him."

"Well it guess he's..."

*Puts on sunglasses*

"Shit out of luck."

YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

"The Michael Jackson fan was stabbed in the dressing room"

"Well it looks like the victim..."

*sunglasses*

"didn't see the man in the mirror"

YYYEEEEEEEEAAAAHHHHHHHHHH

" We found her head ripped off with her eyes stuffed in her ears"

"well it seems...."

"sunglasses"

" She wont be getting ahead in life"

YYYEAAAAHHHHHHH

and much more puns in the comment section... Enjoy.

Love Sewing?

check out this fantabulous web.

http://sewmesomethinggood.blogspot.com

i loooooooove QUILTS!

vocab with a dose of cyanide

understanditto- full understanding of a situation that is annoyingly complicated.

absofabulutely fawsome! - he whom surpasses the higher beings of awesomeness with a capital A.

is all.

Magic

You know there's a kind of magic between people you love?

It's the understanding; knowing too much that they become a part of you.

You know what? As cliche as that lines pricks at my much less mushy bits, somewhere far deep down i truly believe there's that kind of magic.

Maybe it's not magic. It's simply how the understanding can be so wholesome and fulfilling during the moment, that when it fits like a glove, it feels like magic.

almost fairytale like.♥

Maybe i should stop thinking and start dreaming.

Selfishness and all things that follow.

I've been walking down memory lane, every bit in it's figurative and literate meaning. There so much i realized that i've done, so much i've shared, so much i have become since i've left high school.

Is it fair to say that i have change in mass proportion in comparison to who i was in school??

Perhaps in terms of personality, i might not have changed at all?

I'm still that gullible girl that started out with a flair to look at things on the greener side of life.

Not so much when i hit the big dip downwards. I can be quite the pessimist.

What i do realized is, i'm not good at keeping friends at all.

I've made so many many friend in all walks of life, and yet the effort spent to keep them within my hindsight was taxing and frustrating, and it twist my guts how socially inept i am.

Trust me, i suck.

Or you might be one of those friends who just know how bad i am at keeping em'.

The whole point of this "me" banter is to say how sorry i am if i have in any way offended anyone, as i admit with true and thorough defeat that i am truly bad at keeping friends.

I'm selfish, because i let my own insecurities take the best of me.

I am painfully shy.

I'm afraid of confrontation.

And to speak truth in every sense of word, i'm plain scared that i bore you to death.

Yes, you my friend.

I've disappoint you, i've cause you sorrow, i've let you down. I have made you feel like you meant nothing in my life.

But the truth is, you do.

As hard as it is to believe, for every friendship I've forage and conquered, i cherish with all my heart. So much, i want it to remain that way. The way you see me as me, the first impressions that may (or may not) have leave positive(/negative) markings all over your generous heart. I am 'perfect' that way and wanted to remain so in your eyes.

All i can give you is this.

I cannot be there for you always

I cannot be there at the exact moment when you're depressed or jubilant,

Or through every laughter and tears.

Through every pain and hardship.

All i can offer is myself.

I cannot cure your pain, but i can share it

I cannot be always there, but i can go the distance for you

I cannot read minds but i am willing to listen to you if it takes all night.

I can be that friend that you haven't contacted in months, but is still able to "click" with.

I am willing to go to great lengths to be there.

Because that's what a friend do.

So i'm sorry my friend, that i could not be all you want me to be.

I'm sorry i can only do so much..

But i'll try really hard. because that's how much you mean to me in my life.

So don't walk away just yet.

Ranting on and on

Survived another semester and it's on to the next hell in two blinks!

friggin 6th!

and i'm flying to bangkok on 5th.

Yeah yeah, i know.

Oh life. o_O

deppressed

and i don't know why.

The book of Bunny Suicides

It never gets old.

A Fudge World

Everyone appreciates the bad, and the different, the odd, the unique

No one likes good ol Jack or Jane .

I say we give them spotlights.

Cause the world's screwed, and we need normals.
Where did tact, grace and chivalry went?

Bitches rule and players drool.

The world in chaos.

Garbage talk.

you have the right to remain silent. anything you say will be misquoted,

then used against you.

-you know it ain't original, when it's creates a stream of viral pimples all over other sites, and gives you goosebumps, the nice, tingly kind-


so, heck it ain't mine!

Colour Personality Test.

Your Existing Situation

"Works hard and is actively pursuing her goals; however, she feels unappreciated and doesn't see any reward for her efforts."

Your Stress Sources

Feeling empty and isolated from others and trying to bridge the gap between herself and others. Wants to live life to the fullest and experience as much as possible. she cannot stand any restrictions or obstacles put in her way and only longs to be free.

Your Restrained Characteristics

"Emotionally withdrawn, feels forced to make compromises which makes emotional attachments difficult."

"Although she is able to find contentment through sexual activity physical activities, she feels hopeless to change her problems and difficulties and continues to make the best of what she has."

"Emotionally withdrawn, feels forced to make compromises which makes emotional attachments difficult."

Your Desired Objective

Very active imagination and may be prone to fantasies and daydreaming. Always dreaming of interesting and exciting things to happen to her. Is a charmer and wants to be admired for that.

Your Actual Problem

"Feeling held back and restricted from moving forward, looking for a solution that will give her more freedom and less obstacles."

Your Actual Problem #2

"Fears she will be held back from achieving things she really wants, leading her to search endlessly for satisfaction and become involved in activities which are pointless."

Here's the website so you can get your own personalized colour test ;D

www.colorquiz.com

The link doesn't work, you'll have to type in colorquiz.com. A five minute personality test. Pretty darn spot on if you ask me.

Life's a rainbow of colours, but we're all stuck at the sunshine bit. -Dee

Anger issues.

Why do people tell others that they are not angry when they are in fact, very angry.

Aside from the fact that it's freakishly hilarious (being all huffed but shouting that you're OK, is not OK ), it's also super annoying and very I'm-not-past-my-teenage-angst period.

Not only do they do that, they then proceed to prattle (yes, prattle like an arthritic hag ) about how miserable they are to their friends because of this so and so friend who've pissed them off (unknowingly), and didn't apologize or make up for it, or did not bother to hear them out.

Sweetcakes, none of us are mind readers.

If you're hurting, just say it. Doesn't make you any less manlier, or whinier. or bitchier.

In fact, whining about not having the problem solved afterward is what makes you a whiny bitch.

But some of us just are made that way huh? ;)

Are you a whiny bitch?

For hecks.

Here's a little eye candy after all the misery talk. ;)

life's not so bad when you can draw some of your troubles away.