FOR LITTLE THINGS THAT MATTERS..

Low Millions

2011-03-08T10:57:00.001-08:00

i won't call you baby anymore,

won't call you baby like i did before.

won't call you baby anymore.

Eleanor.

Sorry?

2011-03-08T10:48:00.000-08:00

sorry is something we all have to be at some point to learn true 'moral values' and people who are not sorry end up with self grandourous beliefs,narcissistic tenancies and hurt a lot of people
(and i know plenty of people like this, and plenty people who got like this due to never being asked to really be sorry )

if the person did this once, forgiving them will ease your mind thats true,
that is indeed a power they cant take away from you
but if they do it again, that will ease nothing.
and by doing it again they then are taking the power away from you

the person will have some problem that is making them internally angry and taking it out on you.
forgiving them every time only invites you to be hurt every time, invites them to never heal whatever problem they have and thats not helping anyone.

forgiveness is something that does have to be earned sometimes
you cant go about forgiving everyone for everything all the time,

look at society
there would be no punishment, no law, society would be pretty much anarchy.
people would do what ever they want with no fear of reprisal and confrontation
and those reprisals, the consequences are part of the reasons we dont all go around breaking the law willy nilly

is is really fair fair that you are a 'good person' per say who can be sorry when you hurt someone but be hurt by someone who doesn't care enough about you to be sorry for that?.

some people do things to hurt on purpose they dont need forgiveness, they need to be taught like a child stealing another's sweet that that kind of thing is wrong,

forgiveness like everything else in life has its time and place.

only you will know if this person deserves your forgiveness, and only you will know if they have done or are likely to do this again, and only you can know if forgiving them will make you happy.

to forgive someone who isnt sorry, although it depends on what has happened , what they did, why they did it etc,
i can say when i had to forgive someone for something that ruined my life, and who wasnt sorry
i found that realizing and accepting that the person wasnt really to blame was what helped heal me and helped me eventually forgive them.

forgive them by realizing that really internally they have a problem that causes them to act out,
that maybe it isnt their fault (if that is true, ie maybe they have a mental illness or a disability)
that maybe they are doing all they can to 'fix' themselves (as long as they really are)
if they accept they have a problem and ask for help its always easier to empathise and consider what they must be feeling and to forgive them

Another problem with not forgiving someone is that it gives them power over you. Think about it. You're upset, maybe even raging about what they did. Probably spending much more time and effort on it than it's worth. Point in fact, you are giving them power over you because you are choosing to devote time and effort to the problem.

Read more: http://wiki.answers.com/Q/How_do_you_forgive_someone_who_is_not_even_sorry#ixzz1G2GcbGQ2

It is a DECISION to forgive a person, regardless of action.

-taken from wikianswers-

Careful

2011-01-18T09:10:00.000-08:00

I settled down
A twisted up frown
Disguised as a smile, well
You would have never known

I had it all
But not what I wanted
Cause home/hope for me
Was a place uncharted
And overgrown

you'd make your way in
I resist you just like this

You can't tell me to feel
The truth never set me free
So, I did it myself

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out a little more
More
More
More, more

Open your eyes like i opened mine
It's only the real world.
A life you will never will know

Shifting your weight
To throw off the pain
Well you can ignore it
But, only for so long

You look like I did
You resist me just like this

You can't tell me to heal
And, it hurts remembering
How it felt to shut down

Can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out a little more
More
More
More, more

The truth never set me free
The truth never set me free
The truth never set me free
So, I'll do it myself

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out

Can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out
More
More
More
More, more

Not a believer? Boy oh boy we're going to hell.

2010-11-18T08:05:00.001-08:00

first thing's first

" If i sold my house and my car, had a big garage sale and gave all my money to the church, would i get into heaven?" I asked the children in my Sunday school class.

"No!" the children all answered.

"if i cleaned the church everyday, mowed the yard and kept everything neat and tidy, would i get to heaven?"

Again, the answer was, "No!"

" Well," i continued, "then how can I get to heaven?"

A five yo boy shouted, "You've gotta be dead!"

-Jan Cupp (Reader's Digest 02')

Now why didn't i think of that.

3000 miles to a U turn.

2010-11-06T08:45:00.001-07:00

Once again, i'm in a bitch mood.

I simple DO NOT UNDERSTAND girls sometimes.

albeit being one, for what, twenty years.

Nuh-uh.

Don't tell me that you don't really want something, and turns out that in the end, you really did want it, lament and whine about to another person bout how terrible of a person i am to not offer you, which i clearly did, not that you listen, and then only to have it bite me back in the arse for a thing that i clearly did offer you.

For the last time, i do not friggin read your rat-assed minds.

If you do want to whine, friggin tell it to my face. geez. it's really that easy!

you've known me for TEN YEARS.

isn't it time to stop pretending to be all that i-is-shy-to-use-your-stuff hogwash?

Besides, if you really did want it, you wouldn't have drag your heavy bum all over the place and hop to the web to find out about it.

that's all. i'm done ranting.

fudging world.

Another lovely blog for sewing♥!

2010-11-04T06:13:00.000-07:00

http://mairuru.blogspot.com

Jap Lady with a kid nicknamed Tomato. SO ADORABLEH!♥♥

check it~!

David Caruso aka Horatio Cane.

2010-11-01T22:54:00.000-07:00

If you've watched CSI you would love this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=glvGfQnx3DI&feature=related

and these...

"Horashio, this man was found dead in mcdonalds Early in the monring"

- I guess He didn't ....

*puts on glasses*

- have a happy Meal

YEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAH !!!!!!!!

"We found the victim in the casino parking lot. It seems that the killer defecated on him."

"Well it guess he's..."

*Puts on sunglasses*

"Shit out of luck."

YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

"The Michael Jackson fan was stabbed in the dressing room"

"Well it looks like the victim..."

*sunglasses*

"didn't see the man in the mirror"

YYYEEEEEEEEAAAAHHHHHHHHHH

" We found her head ripped off with her eyes stuffed in her ears"

"well it seems...."

"sunglasses"

" She wont be getting ahead in life"

YYYEAAAAHHHHHHH

and much more puns in the comment section... Enjoy.

Love Sewing?

2010-10-25T23:31:00.001-07:00

check out this fantabulous web.

http://sewmesomethinggood.blogspot.com

i loooooooove QUILTS!

vocab with a dose of cyanide

2010-10-14T09:00:00.000-07:00

understanditto- full understanding of a situation that is annoyingly complicated.

absofabulutely fawsome! - he whom surpasses the higher beings of awesomeness with a capital A.

is all.

Magic

2010-10-08T09:18:00.000-07:00

You know there's a kind of magic between people you love?

It's the understanding; knowing too much that they become a part of you.

You know what? As cliche as that lines pricks at my much less mushy bits, somewhere far deep down i truly believe there's that kind of magic.

Maybe it's not magic. It's simply how the understanding can be so wholesome and fulfilling during the moment, that when it fits like a glove, it feels like magic.

almost fairytale like.♥

Maybe i should stop thinking and start dreaming.

Selfishness and all things that follow.

2010-09-14T11:22:00.001-07:00

I've been walking down memory lane, every bit in it's figurative and literate meaning. There so much i realized that i've done, so much i've shared, so much i have become since i've left high school.

Is it fair to say that i have change in mass proportion in comparison to who i was in school??

Perhaps in terms of personality, i might not have changed at all?

I'm still that gullible girl that started out with a flair to look at things on the greener side of life.

Not so much when i hit the big dip downwards. I can be quite the pessimist.

What i do realized is, i'm not good at keeping friends at all.

I've made so many many friend in all walks of life, and yet the effort spent to keep them within my hindsight was taxing and frustrating, and it twist my guts how socially inept i am.

Trust me, i suck.

Or you might be one of those friends who just know how bad i am at keeping em'.

The whole point of this "me" banter is to say how sorry i am if i have in any way offended anyone, as i admit with true and thorough defeat that i am truly bad at keeping friends.

I'm selfish, because i let my own insecurities take the best of me.

I am painfully shy.

I'm afraid of confrontation.

And to speak truth in every sense of word, i'm plain scared that i bore you to death.

Yes, you my friend.

I've disappoint you, i've cause you sorrow, i've let you down. I have made you feel like you meant nothing in my life.

But the truth is, you do.

As hard as it is to believe, for every friendship I've forage and conquered, i cherish with all my heart. So much, i want it to remain that way. The way you see me as me, the first impressions that may (or may not) have leave positive(/negative) markings all over your generous heart. I am 'perfect' that way and wanted to remain so in your eyes.

All i can give you is this.

I cannot be there for you always

I cannot be there at the exact moment when you're depressed or jubilant,

Or through every laughter and tears.

Through every pain and hardship.

All i can offer is myself.

I cannot cure your pain, but i can share it

I cannot be always there, but i can go the distance for you

I cannot read minds but i am willing to listen to you if it takes all night.

I can be that friend that you haven't contacted in months, but is still able to "click" with.

I am willing to go to great lengths to be there.

Because that's what a friend do.

So i'm sorry my friend, that i could not be all you want me to be.

I'm sorry i can only do so much..

But i'll try really hard. because that's how much you mean to me in my life.

So don't walk away just yet.

Ranting on and on

2010-08-26T10:05:00.001-07:00

Survived another semester and it's on to the next hell in two blinks!

friggin 6th!

and i'm flying to bangkok on 5th.

Yeah yeah, i know.

Oh life. o_O

deppressed

2010-07-18T15:18:00.001-07:00

and i don't know why.

The book of Bunny Suicides

2010-07-04T14:36:00.000-07:00

It never gets old.

A Fudge World

2010-07-04T14:08:00.001-07:00

Everyone appreciates the bad, and the different, the odd, the unique

No one likes good ol Jack or Jane .

I say we give them spotlights.

Cause the world's screwed, and we need normals.
Where did tact, grace and chivalry went?

Bitches rule and players drool.

The world in chaos.

Garbage talk.

2010-07-04T13:52:00.000-07:00

you have the right to remain silent. anything you say will be misquoted,

then used against you.

-you know it ain't original, when it's creates a stream of viral pimples all over other sites, and gives you goosebumps, the nice, tingly kind-

so, heck it ain't mine!

Colour Personality Test.

2010-06-29T08:14:00.000-07:00

Your Existing Situation

"Works hard and is actively pursuing her goals; however, she feels unappreciated and doesn't see any reward for her efforts."

Your Stress Sources

Feeling empty and isolated from others and trying to bridge the gap between herself and others. Wants to live life to the fullest and experience as much as possible. she cannot stand any restrictions or obstacles put in her way and only longs to be free.

Your Restrained Characteristics

"Emotionally withdrawn, feels forced to make compromises which makes emotional attachments difficult."

"Although she is able to find contentment through ~~sexual activity~~ physical activities, she feels hopeless to change her problems and difficulties and continues to make the best of what she has."

"Emotionally withdrawn, feels forced to make compromises which makes emotional attachments difficult."

Your Desired Objective

Very active imagination and may be prone to fantasies and daydreaming. Always dreaming of interesting and exciting things to happen to her. Is a charmer and wants to be admired for that.

Your Actual Problem

"Feeling held back and restricted from moving forward, looking for a solution that will give her more freedom and less obstacles."

Your Actual Problem #2

"Fears she will be held back from achieving things she really wants, leading her to search endlessly for satisfaction and become involved in activities which are pointless."

Here's the website so you can get your own personalized colour test ;D

www.colorquiz.com

The link doesn't work, you'll have to type in colorquiz.com. A five minute personality test. Pretty darn spot on if you ask me.

Life's a rainbow of colours, but we're all stuck at the sunshine bit. -Dee

Anger issues.

2010-06-29T05:19:00.000-07:00

Why do people tell others that they are not angry when they are in fact, very angry.

Aside from the fact that it's freakishly hilarious (being all huffed but shouting that you're OK, is not OK ), it's also super annoying and very I'm-not-past-my-teenage-angst period.

Not only do they do that, they then proceed to prattle (yes, prattle like an arthritic hag ) about how miserable they are to their friends because of this so and so friend who've pissed them off (unknowingly), and didn't apologize or make up for it, or did not bother to hear them out.

Sweetcakes, none of us are mind readers.

If you're hurting, just say it. Doesn't make you any less manlier, or whinier. or bitchier.

In fact, whining about not having the problem solved afterward is what makes you a whiny bitch.

But some of us just are made that way huh? ;)

Are you a whiny bitch?

For hecks.

2010-06-28T08:24:00.000-07:00

Here's a little eye candy after all the misery talk. ;)

life's not so bad when you can draw some of your troubles away.

A massive mistake

2010-06-23T09:22:00.001-07:00

Do i complain too much? Am i too picky, too critical, too judgemental?

Am i inconsiderate? too Sharp with words? too Blunt with Emotions?

Should i be more.... civil with my words? More careful? filter through everything thrice before spitting it onto others in an offhanded fashion?

Do i talk too much? listen too little?

I guess i am. that about sums up all that is me within these two weeks.
Because somebody seems to think so.

Not that that somebody ever bothers with my blog.

I'm mad at you.

Mostly i'm just mad at myself, and the world.

Just because i smile all the time, doesn't mean i feel the way i'm smiling.
I hate myself, for my superficial need of control over my emotions all the time.

I hate myself when i did lose control.

What's to like? Everything's awful.

I'm just a massive bag of mistakes. yessir.

Plain Jane.

2010-06-22T07:15:00.000-07:00

this world is built to worship the beautiful
i wish i'm as pretty, as the people i see.
for when i look at the mirror, and i see me
that's plain jane me, just plain jane me.

I wish i am pretty, so strong and graceful
i wish i had elegance and my clothes were tasteful
but when i look at the mirror all i see
is plain jane me, oh plain jane me

I wish my skin were as fair as a petal
And my hair flows like the breezy wind.
And i had a a crown so full of glory
That bad hair day don't happen on me.

But i'm just a person with ordinary days
I'm exceptionally plain in extraordinary ways.
My bad hair days outnumbered my good
And my face always looking like it took the boot.

People tell me i'm pretty, i tell them i'm not
Because they so often forgot,
they too feel ugly as often as i
And that feeling grew as time passed by.

We all have that spawn we try to hide

A demonic concerto we try and fight

But in honesty, pretty is hard to be

So I'm perfectly please, to be plain jane me.

Facade of friends.

2010-06-21T09:40:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, what you built up over years can lead to an ultimate fall.
Sometimes, falling makes you get back up. Determine to try again.
But what happens when your knees fail you?
Because other times you just crash and burn...

Maybe it's true that You grew up, and I remain the same.
And that's the sad part of change.
I wish you well in all you do.
But don't come back for me, when you need me.
Because cracks grew bigger over time
And this time, it may be too wide to mend.

It's never too late, but i wish you came sooner.
When we were friends, instead of familiar strangers...

Because you don't care about a stranger, no matter how familiar they are.
You just won't give a shit.

King of Anything.

2010-06-20T23:15:00.000-07:00

Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
While I look outside
So many things I’d say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You’ve got opinions, man
We’re all entitled to ‘em, but I never asked
So let me thank you for your time, and try not to waste anymore of mine
And get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe, but I’m not drowning
There’s no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died, and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent, all full of good intent
Swear you know best
But you expect me to jump up on board with you
And ride off into your delusional sunset

I’m not the one who’s lost with no direction
But you’ll never see
You’re so busy making maps with my name on them in all caps
You got the talking down, just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

All my life I’ve tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it’s my turn to decide

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Let me hold your crown, babe.

Twilight.

2010-06-16T08:02:00.000-07:00

It's so bad, it makes clowns cry.

Sugar-coating.

2010-06-15T11:33:00.000-07:00

You could tell a billion white lies to others and make them like you. You could butter em up and down like a nice freshly baked scone.

But what you turn out to be, is molded by what they want you to be.

Are you willing to lose your identity, to doormat glossy shoes and crisp expensive coats?
Or do you wanna gain rapport and respect in the good ol fashion way of being you?

Do you really just want to be another puppy-eye adoring slick kid? Or the one that holds the leash of power?

Don't conform. Retaliate.

Mirror mirror.

2010-06-15T08:54:00.000-07:00

“Mirror, Mirror, heart of black, Can you see the things I lack?”
“I suffer silent, still and cold; Thinking of things of old.”
“Blood runs deep and I must confess, Only then can I find a semblance of happiness,”
“Blood soaked hands I must hide, With the monster I keep inside,”
“Mirror, Mirror, Can’t you see? What this reflection does to me?”
“Fire burn and ashes pile, How did I become so Vile?”
“For now I know a truth so rough, This will never be enough,”
“Blood flowed deep and ashes fly high, I will never reach the sky…”
"Heavens gates wont open for me,”
*pause*
“Oh, Mirror, Mirror can’t you see; What this reflection does to me?”

-Something i found on Ann's blog-

8D

Four Seasons.

2010-06-15T07:59:00.000-07:00

Don't know why and when i wrote this, but it was in high school quite awhile back. Posted in on Friendster, and re-posting it here.
Enjoy! =)

Four Seasons

Spring comes into view

So pretty, fresh and clean

From dripping dews of early dawn

To birds singing gaily

As animal woke up one by one

To greet the dearly missed great sun

Its spring time again;

But let’s not forget summer please

After spring passed in a breeze

Before the autumn had begun

The summer shines beneath the sun

The beaches open day to night

Indeed a very pretty sight

As children play Indians all day

In the middle of hot, cheery May

As days of spring began to flew

And autumn came into the view

The pretty little trees

All dressed in their colored leaves

A striking yellow, brown and red,

That Mother Nature had create

Her dainty fingers work them down

As they fall on to the ground

And crackle as people walk upon

The path that had been adorn

By the falling leaves of autumn trees

White covered the pretty trees

And turn them bare

As little flakes float down with ease

And settle on the doorstep

A unique pattern in each snowflake

That is of course if you take

The time to observe

The peaceful scenery of silent winter

And the purring of the heater

Toads under stones

A resting

Till spring arise again.

The paradox of our time. -George Carlin

2010-05-23T05:56:00.001-07:00

the paradox of our time

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but
shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more,
but have less; we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and
smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees
but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more
problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too
little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our
possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and
hate too often.

We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life. We’ve added years to
life not life to years. We’ve been all the way to the moon and back, but
have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer
space but not inner space.

We’ve done larger things, but not better things. We’ve cleaned up the air,
but polluted the soul. We’ve conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.

We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less.

We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold
more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less
and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small
character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of
two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.

These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one
night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer,
to quiet, to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the
stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time
when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.

-G.C

Tears

2010-05-22T09:21:00.001-07:00

There are plenty of moments in life when i'd like to cry.
I'd like to cry when friendship sailed away.
I'd like to cry when what i said don't count to a person i cared about.
I'd like to cry when i'm feeling helpless over the directions of things in my life.
I'd like to cry when i look back and thought about why i cared
I'd like to cry because insanely, i still do.
I'd like to cry when i let it all happen to me, and i took it in.
I'd like to cry when i do let the tears come by.

I'd like to cry when i can't cry.

But i can't control the moments when i do cry.
And when i do cry, the tears just can't stop gushing.

Tears are just useless blobs of liquid that does nothing.
But god help me, i'd like to cry.

Life Quote

2010-05-17T09:07:00.000-07:00

In life we need small, mean things like loopholes, once in awhile to appreciate the smooth ride ahead.

- deezer-

Is it the patient, or the doctor?

2010-05-04T02:25:00.000-07:00

www.yvonnefoong.com

Yvonne Foong is a victim of a rare disease called Neurofibromatosis, which causes a string of tumours to grow up her spinal cords and near her brain. This compresses her nerves and paralyses her in many ways, in which, took plenty of years to recover from and to walk again. Partially blind and deaf, even now, she's still battling to live a normal life. Before all of this, she was just a regular growing teen, learning ballet and figure skating, passionate and confident about her future. And though this disease might have crippled her in many ways physically, she stayed strong and pull through with the expertise of modern medical help. She writes about her life in her website, and aims to create awareness and support for her cause.

I thought this particular article she wrote ring plenty of bells for us, to what most of us face from our doctors in Malaysia, especially those working under our goverment.

Read on if you please.

Article: Is the patient lazy or the doctor?

April 26th, 2010 | Category: Caring For Dad

Mom just told me that the UMMC doctor said dad can walk, he just doesn’t want to move. I told mom not to believe her.

Unfortunately. I am all too familiar with these doctors. That happened to me when I had my spine surgery at KLGH in 2002.

After Neurosurgeon Johari Sinegar removed multiple tumors along my upper thoracic spine, I couldn’t sit or stand. When I propped the bed higher and higher to sit up on my own, one of the doctors who I suppose was the MO said to me, “What’s the use of sitting up when you cannot even walk?” The doctors and nurses said that I was lazy.

They wanted to discharge me even before the physiotherapist could work with me beyond simple bed exercises. Mom yelled at the doctor and asked him how could he discharged me when I could not even walk.

He buckled up and allowed me to stay on. Then the physiotherapist could continue to work with me. Two of them needed to do it together. One carried me and held my body upright. Another bent down to hold both my feet in the standing position. My soles could not even feel the floor when we started. I felt like floating and was afraid of collapsing.

They did this a couple of times before giving me a walker. With the walker, the physiotherapist clung onto me and the walker closely as we walked to make sure I did not fall. It hurt so much to walk but I recovered all thanks to the physiotherapists.

So when doctors in this country say that you are lazy, they just want to be done with your case as soon as possible. Don’t let them pull down your self-esteem.

Just a lil food for thought. You can trust anyone, but above all, you must trust yourself.

TC! ~ DEezer/

Hello heartache, you can suck it.

2010-05-03T07:49:00.000-07:00

Dear loyal readers, non-loyal reader, passerby, accidental clickers, and friends alike.

Yesterday i had perhaps, one of the many gloomy days of my life.

Not that my everyday is plastered in grey and black of course.

And it got me thinking how alone we are in this world when we're down. How much gloom can suck us into dusty cracks of the old life so fast, that your head's left spinning upon impact.

How a mere glance, and small encouraging word and a the touch of a true friend can change all that.

It's funny cause at the point when you thought you ARE alone, and you go over that self-pity routine, mop around in your pink fluffy room and post in on your hypocritical blog and BAM it hits you that there's a squillion of others out there worse off then you.

But of course, Africa's starving, and Pandas in China are crying themselves to extinction. Why'd you think they've blacks around the eyes. And then we have the ultimate global warming that's slowly sinking earth into another cold yogurt of mess at different poles and frying them at others.

Thank the ol G.W for your skin problems sweety.

And you think, HECK, I HAVE PROBLEMS?

yeah, i goddamnwell do. So do every single fudging entity or being on earth.

So i need to suck it up, and stop harbouring on past fudgeups =)

and Tommorow WILL be a better day.

Courage

2010-04-13T05:45:00.000-07:00

People around me tells me courage is to stand up for things you want, to go out and speak in public, to rebel and advocate for associations and pro bono work.

Articles tell me that courage stands for men willing to risk their lives in a battle for the lives of others, women that had triumphed the odds in every sense, Athletes running around the world as representatives for a cause and children who runs into burning shacks to save their younger siblings.

All those are very much courageous; true to word.

But the first time i learn about courage is from a book by Enid Blyton.
It takes courage to admit insecurities.
It takes courage to believe that things are possible
It takes courage to be yourself.
It takes courage to admit that you are lonely.
And finally, it takes courage to go through each and every day standing true to your values, and what makes you, well... You.

Courage don't have to be large and acknowledge by a bunch of overeager crowd of fans.
Courage starts small, and is that quiet voice, telling you is OK to feel the way you do, when the whole world gives you the stink eye.

And finally, courage is that small voice telling you, tomorrow I'll try again.

I'm Sorry.

2010-04-13T05:14:00.000-07:00

There's a song that goes, "Sorry seems to be the hardest words." But it's not the words that are difficult. It's meaning them. And not stopping until the injured party believes you do.
-Mitch Albom-

It's not the sorry that people seek, but the knowledge that the person is well and truly, regretful of their actions...

Perhaps when those five letter spouts like a watering can off our flowery society, it seemed more of a polite gesture, than a well meant, sincere apology.

Because when you do it brashly, there's no need to swallow your ego and humble yourself.
And when the other party refuses to accept the apology, or show signs and indications that they are still not letting it go, you became furious and upset claiming that the whole purpose is to make you feel bad.

Is it fair to say that this mindset is in fact, Individualistic?

Saying sorry doesn't put you in the mercy of others. It only puts you within the confrontation of your conscience and yourself. Because you know that you are gripped with a sense of contrition, when you understand the other party might not be able to fully forgive you.

That's when you place yourself in a disposition that allows you to say that you truly are, sorry.

detritus of life.

2010-04-03T14:26:00.000-07:00

Wants to be really good at ten things in life before I'm wiped out from the face of earth by whatever that's waiting for me round the bend.

Ok, maybe five. 8D

Jabberwocky

2010-03-18T11:30:00.000-07:00

`Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe:
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

"Beware the Jabberwock, my son!
The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!
Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun
The frumious Bandersnatch!"

He took his vorpal sword in hand:
Long time the manxome foe he sought --
So rested he by the Tumtum tree,
And stood awhile in thought.

And, as in uffish thought he stood,
The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame,
Came whiffling through the tulgey wood,
And burbled as it came!

One, two! One, two! And through and through
The vorpal blade went snicker-snack!
He left it dead, and with its head
He went galumphing back.

"And, has thou slain the Jabberwock?
Come to my arms, my beamish boy!
O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!'
He chortled in his joy.

`Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

-Through The Looking Glass (Alice in Wonderlan)

A corny issue.

2010-03-18T09:38:00.000-07:00

For the sake of those who had suffered long enough in silence... i shall put a few cues here on how to get rid of this corny situation once and for all, pun intended!

Corny Solution A

Wait for it to go off. This could probably take awhile, from a few months to a few years (i kid you not) but you could save the trouble of spending any MAHNAY. By then however, all you could think of is you should spend a lil time and effort and some $$$ to get rid of the darn FUDGERING corn. You wouldn't want to do that.

trust me, i did.

Corny Solution B

Get yourself a corn plaster from one of those handy 24/7 pharmacies.
Apply it as instructed
(aka place plaster with round spongy thinger directly on top of corn, surrounding it. )

After noticing that your skin is hardened and peeling (after a day or more from application) proceed to cutting and digging the skin around it till it's you reach a white center part and dig that out. Dip feet into warm water beforehand so it's easier to snip at it. Continue this process everyday until everything is cleared.

lHurts like Fudging Helll. This method is ineffective for me, but whatever.
it might work for you.

Most people i know recommends it.

My skin is however, extra thick and very very stubborn.

Corny Solution C

Aloe Vera. Snip a piece of Aloe Vera leaf off your mom's favourite "tong sui" plant, and apply exposed area (the wet wet one la) onto affected area on foot.
Never tried it, it's traditional.
Apparently it works. Maybe after, you could make yourself some nice HK feet tongsui.. Yummm..

Corny Solution D

Purchase Duofilm (Or hydrochloric acid, according to a friend) from the pharmacy. External use only, please do not swallow unless you're planning on taking your own life, if that's the case then feel free to do so (but you didn't hear it from me of course). Apply around infected area and a drip or two ON corn. Chant some self healing mantra, sleep it off and voila!

To speed process, PEEL AND CUT THE DWANG THING OUT. =)

again, pain factor remains unavoidable. Still, it's better than having that constant piercing pain. If you've had it, you would know it. ♥

Love,

deezer

bummer.

2010-03-14T11:22:00.000-07:00

my life is pretty simple. it's my feelings that complicates it.

2010-03-08T00:12:00.000-08:00

"For pen is mightier then one's sword

For wounds hurts less then a word and a thought

And a cut that gnaws the soul, the heart

Echoes on, lingered after all has part."

Regina's Advices on LIFE

2010-01-25T09:03:00.001-08:00

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me.

It is the most-requested column I've ever written."

My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once

more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7... Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.

Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come.

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

Ladies, how bout four husbands? =)

2010-01-25T08:47:00.000-08:00

Ladies, how about four husbands?

JAN 13 — Recently, an article written by Nadine al-Bedair My Four Husbands and I created a furor among the Saudi conservatives. The said essay was picked up by the English media, though it hardly mustered a mention in Malaysia.

Reading it, I thought Khaled Diab’s analysis of al Bedair’s prose as honest, practical and that Bedair put forth her arguments wittily.

Diab commented, “Nadine al-Bedair quite sensibly posed the logical question: if Muslim men are entitled to marry up to four wives, why can’t women, in the spirit of equality between believers, have four husbands?

“I have long questioned why it is men have a monopoly on this right. No one has been able to explain to me convincingly why it is I’m deprived of the right to polyandry,” she complains.

The outspoken Saudi then goes on to deconstruct and question the traditional justifications for polygamy, including that, in a traditional patriarchal society, it is a shelter for widows, divorcees and women who can’t find a spouse; that men have greater sexual appetites than women and get easily bored; that women can’t handle more than one man; and that, if women could have multiple husbands, determining paternity would not be possible (an excuse made obsolete by modern science).”

“They tell me that I, as a woman, can’t handle more than one man physically. I say that women who cheat on their husbands and the ‘sellers of love’ [ie. prostitutes] do much more,” she counters.

I have to agree: what makes people think that women are truly the weaker sex and can barely handle one man’s ferocious appetite for sex?

Because I know many women who play out of their relationships and marriages, and there’s a growing number of polyamorous types walking and living in this city.

And do think about it: with women being more educated and financially independent, what can ONE MAN offer her? Not all men are good in bed, you know.

One man for love, one man for money, one man for sex and one man for great deep meaningful conversation.

And before you boys get riled up and start waving your er, ‘keris’ to prove your manhood, observe the more up-market hotel lounges and coffeehouses. Those ladies who lunch and look like boiled eggs? You think the boys with them are their SONS?

So. Let’s say we want to halalkan zina. Perhaps by legitimising the affairs, women too should be allowed four husbands.

“Ha? You dah gila ke. Laki satu pun dah pening, nak empat lagi?” A friend was incredulous.

Ah, ladies. This is where we err. Allow me to quote a good friend who is KL’s style maven: Dzireena Mahadzir. In her last column she told us to think like a man. And to think like a man is to compartmentalise. Remember!

One man for love

One man for money.

One man for sex

One man for great deep meaningful conversation.

You repeat all the four lines 1,000 times a day in front of you mirror. InsyAllah.

I have this friend who’s a Shiite and she’s younger than me. Devout, she has had six husbands already.

“Oh my God, you’re only 30 and you’ve had six husbands?!”

“Dina, I kahwin mutaah! We Shiites can do so!”

“What on earth is that?” Kahwin lari I had heard. Mutaah no.

According to the Jakim website: “Nikah Mutaah (kahwin kontrak) iaitu meletakkan syarat untuk menjadi pasangan suami isteri buat sementara atau beberapa tahun sahaja.

Para fuqaha’ telah bersepakat telah menyatakan bahawa kahwin mut’ah hanya dibenarkan pada awal perkembangan Islam.Kebenaran pada masa itu adalah dengan tujuan untuk memperkembangkan Islam dan setelah hari pembukaan Mekah perkahwinan seperti itu telah diharamkan dan pengharaman tersebut adalah selama-lamanya. Ia bukan suatu yang bidaah atau yang baru diada-adakan cuma ada antara mazhab dalam Syiah yang membenarkan perkahwinan tersebut.

Dan pada masa ini, berlaku juga persetujuan bersama pasangan suami isteri tentang tempoh tertentu sebagai syarat perkahwinan untuk kepentingan peribadi, harta benda dan sebagainya samada disedari ataupun tidak bahawa meletakkan tempoh tertentu sebagai syarat itu pun menyebabkan tidak sah akad. .” [1], [2]

Wah, I also want la. I want to be Malaysia’s Elizabeth Taylor! I want I want!

Now what is the argument against polyandrous women?

The very enlightening and humorous book on genetics and evolution Why Beautiful People Have More Daughters by Alan S. Miller and Satoshi Kanazawa explains what monogamy, polygyny and polyandry are. Monogamy is the marriage of one man to one woman while polygyny is the marriage of one man to more than one woman.

Polyandry is the marriage of one woman to more than one man. Polygamy is the more popular term for polygyny, though the term refers to both.

“Now, the fact that polyandry is very rare in human society decidedly does not mean that married women have always been faithful to their husbands and mated with one man. On the contrary, human females have been promiscuous throughout their evolutionary history.”

The issue of paternity arises as men decide to stake claims on their progeny, and while polygynous men would be able to discern whose child is whose (which wife), with polyandrous women, it would be much, much harder. Sperm from different males have to fight with each other to impregnate the female.

Which is why the human penis is shaped the way it is.

The book quoted Gordon G Gallup and his collaborators. “The shape of the human penis… is shaped like a wedge.”

When a human male and human female copulate, the thrusting motions the penis makes “would be to draw foreign semen back away from the cervix…

“So in the case of polyandrous females, their males partners will be competing to scoop out rival sperms.

“In other words, the human penis is a semen displacement service.”

It’s a shovel.

So there you have it, my dear readers. The scientific reason behind the move against polyandry: safeguarding your progeny. Me Tarzan you Jane and this is my monkey.

Truth is, at least among my women friends and me, fidelity and monogamy are the most practical options. I quote another friend, “Aiyo, kalau one man dah berapa round, ni nak empat, mati keras aku woi…”

Readers with no sense of humour are not allowed to read my column.

Readers who think they are smarter than everyone else who reads TMI are not allowed to read my column.

Readers who think they are the next Messiah and already have a place in Heaven definitely CANNOT read my column.

[1] Note to readers: you are all Malaysians. If you can quarrel about the Allah issue, you can translate the above into English yourself.

[2] Note to readers II: yes, I am too lazy to translate it for you.

-Dina Zaman

Aome Ann-ish Quotes, just for fun =D

2010-01-22T10:43:00.000-08:00

When you're down, look inside yourself. Find your inspiration and motivation.
When you're down, look around yourself. Find the people in your life who have supported you all this while.

Then finally, ask yourself. Why after being blessed with all these and yet you are not happy.

No other things in life will matter more than how you live your life. Seek not the path that will take you no where but despair but instead find the way that will inspire you and push you forward in life.
Looking back won't change what is already done but looking forward can change that which has not yet been done.

thang says:
i gues like it or not watever ppl around say will affect u in some way
some more n some less tats allso in the end u gotta look into urself n do d thing tat u feel is most right regardless of hu u r dealing with.

And from her collections of quotations.

"And what shall we pray for those who have lost, Not sight of the goal, But sight of the cost? Many a finish, Many an end, For enemy, for lover, For betrayer, for friend

Prayers may not change things for you but it may change you for things.

Hey girl =)

2010-01-17T09:16:00.000-08:00

Listened to this song and thought of you. =) You know who you are.
Enjoy.

Short Note from Writer ,

Wrote this yesterday. It's about that friend that you've held a grudge with for such a long time that you forget what the conversation was about.

Hope you like! :)

Much Love,
Chris

When The Lights Burn Out
By Chris Cendana Copyright 2007

When it's cold,
i think of you and things feel like old times
And the laughs we had warm me inside
my mind is at ease
when thinking of you and me
Had a fight on our last go round
No idea my world would come right down
With nothing left to hold
It's crazy to know,
That you would still be there..

And I want you to know, I'll be here till my hair falls out
and shining when the lights burn out
I know it's been while but I can't help smile =)
When you turn my world upside down

Yes, I know it's been years (feels like years)
since we've talked on the phone this long
And didn't say who was wrong
Let's try to make this right
I need some of you in my life

Take some time to reflect
on the day that our friendship was set aside
By the words that got mixed up in my mind
A simple flaw is enough to destroy us all

I admit I was wrong, but dragging this out too long
Was enough for me to write this song
And say I'm sorry for all the things I've done.

And I want you to know,
I'll be here till my hair falls out
and shining when the lights burn out
I know it's been while but I can't help smile =)
When you turn my world upside down

Yes, I know it's been years since we've talked on the phone this long
And didn't say who was wrong
Let's try to make this right
I need some of you in my life
When the lights burn out. . .

Insult. XD

2010-01-15T07:18:00.001-08:00

shadowed city slumbers silently, a second story suite come craving courtship, selected serindipitously crazed copulation, a salacious storm of continuos coitus spread, straddled, conquered. Countless crashed suitors strewn carelessly center, silken sheets sensously caressing soft skin, contentedly sleeps your mom. XD

Traces of you.

2010-01-07T09:17:00.000-08:00

Did spring cleaning for my room today, and found traces of high school everywhere, from books to magazines. Can't help noticing how much of our lives are wired together, tangled in a web dusty year books that preserved our memories for good. Hardly surprising, considering the fact that we are sisters after all. Though many would have beg to differ at our clashing characteristics in every way. But to say that me and her are like fire and water would be incorrect. True to life, we do not compliment each other at all. But unlike fire and water, when pushed together, we can make quite a inferno team.

Maybe it's cause our weaknesses were slapped onto each other faces so blatantly and unwillingly we learn to work around each other or maybe it's cause we simply know too much of what makes us tick, hence pushing out the better bits.

Or maybe it's simply cause we know too much.

Perhaps, it would be more spot on to say we're more like oil and water, able to mix, but better off separated. After all, what can you do with water mixed with oil?

You know how it's like when you try to wash off all the slimy oil from that dish?

I'm still looking for the right detergeant.

Because no matter how hard i scrub, it won't go away.

Love Quotes?

2010-01-02T10:28:00.001-08:00

Most relationships tend to fail
Not because of the absence of love
Love is always present
It’s just that one is being loved too much
And the other was being loved too little

Love is magic
The more we hide it
The more it shows
The more you suppress it
The more it grows

That’s what love is
You take a leap and hold your breath
Hoping that one day
Someone will catch you

You need to learn to let go when you’re hurting too much
Realize that sometimes love just isn’t enough
And accept the fact that things aren’t always gonna be the same

Sometimes you think you’re already over a person
Until you see them smile at you again
You’ll suddenly realize that you’re really not

Love is like handing someone a gun
Having them point it at your heart
And trusting them never to pull the trigger

If I had to choose between loving you and breathing
I would use my last breath to tell you that I love you

Love is when you still love that one guy
Even though you know he doesn’t

After Awhile

2010-01-02T01:40:00.001-08:00

After a While

After a while you learn
The subtle difference between
Holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn
That kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes ahead
With the grace of a woman
Not the grief of a child

And you learn
To build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is
Too uncertain for plans
And futures have a way
Of falling down in mid flight

After a while you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get too much
So you plant your own garden
And decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting
For someone to bring you flowers

And you learn
That you really can endure
That you are really strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and you learn
With every good bye you learn.

Veronica A. Shoffstall

Fireflies -Owl City

2010-01-02T01:19:00.000-08:00

You Would Not Believe Your Eyes
If Ten Million Fireflies
Lit Up The World As I Fell Asleep
Cause They Fill The Open Air
And Leave Teardrops Everywhere
You'd Think me Rude
But I Wouuld Just Stand And stare.

I won't be caught dead with techno trash at most times, but this is pretty awesome =)

Lumut Lumut here i come!!!

2009-12-15T16:22:00.000-08:00

In two hours time, my ass will be doing a lil road trip to lumut, for family vacation. =)

I have miraculously done four assignments per se in a day in order to go for this trip.

Nonetheless, its not like it's an option for me NOT to go. Her Motherness will, with all due respect, skewer me with hot tobasco sauce if I so much as mentioned that I could not go due to my "overwhelming truck loads of assignments "(Which i dearly paid for when i procrastinated all those weeks back XD)

Thank you Kwok Lun for graciously helping me out with... *cough*assignments*cough*=)!

Anyway, those who wish to reach me can do so through my mobile number, of course. For the record, i'll be going for hot springs and sandy beaches, so yes, envy me people. XD I'll update you guys when i get back on the 19th!

Grats to Jeremy Ooi! Cicak getting married =) And Ivy the Clown as well (engaged).

in the meantime, Au Revoir =)

Sandy's Fun Day!

2009-12-12T16:31:00.000-08:00

SuperLargeFamilyPhoto =)

My last Teen birthday! XD

Too bad half the people i invited couldn't show up since it was a "school" night.

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE PEOPLE! XD

YES YOU!

but it's ok, the other half made it awesome for me. =)

First of all, i would like to apologize for the lack of activities, i know it's all just Makan jer, but the point of my birthday is to mingle mingle with the singles >=) !

Anyway, i promise i'll make my 21st a blast and it'll be open to everyone, with permission from my parents of course. XD

Lim Aun Hoong has did me the honour of blogging about my birthday and thankfully decided to be my unofficial photographer (which was made official by me XD) after being there awhile, and fooling around with his new dslr =).

Check it out guys, here's his blog.

http://aunhoong.blogspot.com/

And here's the list of people who showed up =)

Hoong (But of course XD)

Sheryl Wong

Nelson Teon

Hsu Ann

David Sia

Kenneth Tan

James Ng

Ann Yee - aka MU

Wei Woei- aka the monkey

Dexter Lee

Yap Jun Kae

Tommi Choo

Jonathan Siow

Hui Fen

Lim Jun Yuen - Extremely sorry for forgetting XD

Eddy

Fui Yee and Wilson!

Thanks guys! Y'all have made my party a blast. =)

And at the very last of minutes...

NG VE VEN!!!! XD Thanks girl, for just coming over and wishing me =)

I would like to personally thank Alex Teo for showing up (after saying he evidently won't XD), even when he stays all the way in Cheras in a hostel that closes at TEN PM. It was indeed a very nice surprise!!

Thank you dear ! =)

I guess the only person missing all this is Tiffany Goh =/ Wish you weren't in London, and instead here with all of us!

Thanks to all my three Aunts for showing up like they always do for all our birthdays =)

Aunt Germaine, 1st Aunt and 3rd Aunt!

And to my 8yo and 6yo niece and nephew, Victoria and Will =)

and my cousins, Yen Yen and Len Jin, whom by now, is a big giant! XD

Lastly above all things, MOM AND DAD! Especially to my Mom, for organizing it for me. =)

My sister couldn't show up because she's in Ukraine on an exchange, but she called me right after twelve, and wished me a happy birthday ALL THE WAY FROM UKRAINE. Thanks sis, you know i love you =) Bet your bills are sky high XD.

And now, for the Photo Dump!

"A friend is someone who reaches for your hand, but touches your heart."
- Kathleen Grove

2009-12-03T02:21:00.001-08:00

For traitors on the block should die;

I am no traitor, no, not I!

My faithfulness stands fast and so,

Towards the block I shall not go!

Nor make one step, as you shall see;

Christ in Thy Mercy, save Thou me!

-Margaret Pole (née Plantagenet), 8th Countess of Salisbury (14 August 1473 – 27 May 1541) before her execution

Escape.

2009-12-03T01:55:00.000-08:00

All the best stories in the world are but one story in reality - the story of escape. It is the only thing which interests us all and at all times, how to escape.
Walter Bagehot

Closure.

2009-12-03T01:39:00.000-08:00

How do you obtain that, when you're beyond repairable damage, when what you feel is more like an empty casket brimming with decomposing memories of no sustenance.
Yet the stench so strong it wears on your clothes years and years after it's over.

If we could highlight the files containing old memories subjected to a state of redundancy... except to cause you the occasional heartache and a sense of sickening nostalgia that you do not want, nor need.
and you could suppress it all, crunch it up like the trash it is.
And toss it all away.

Would it be worthy to lose a part of your identity for it?

To have stepped in front of you, and realize I never known you at all, rather to go through repetitive state of torment?

I'd dare say it would.

Once again, ignorance is indeed the biggest bliss of all.

The Wizard Of Oz.

2009-11-26T05:10:00.000-08:00

Scarecrow : I haven't got a brain... only straw.
Dorothy : How can you talk if you haven't got a brain?
Scarecrow : I don't know.. but some people without brains do an awful lot of talking... don't they?

Local Band

2009-11-20T06:26:00.000-08:00

Bunk Face

SILLY LILY!!
walking over me
like a desperation going to explain

but the nightmare
and illusions
she wont happen to believe that its on me

waiting for a sign everytime she comes
its getting so unreal to
BELIEVE ! THAT ! EVERYDAY!!!

(C/O)
SILLY LILY!!
NEVER REALLY LIKED ME
SHE TOLD EVERYONE THAT
I WAS SUCH A GAY

BUT SILY LILY!!
THOUGHT IT WOULD BE EASY
HER PHILOSOPHY IS
BEING LEFT BEHIND BECAUSE OF ME

SILLY LILY,
walking over me
like an ordinary girl
i would ignore to pass the time

but the nightmare
and illusions
she makes everything so right
it got me going everytime

waiting for a sign everytime she comes
its getting so unreal to
BELIEVE ! THAT ! EVERYDAY !!!

(C/O)
SILLY LILY!!
NEVER REALLY LIKED ME
SHE TOLD EVERYONE THAT
I WAS SUCH A GAY

BUT SILY LILY!!
THOUGHT IT WOULD BE EASY
HER PHILOSOPHY IS
BEING LEFT BEHIND BECAUSE OF ME

SILLY LILY, like an impact strike on mtv
SILLY LILY, like a new beginning to believe
SILLY LILY, like an activated misery
SILLY LILY, like a rush towards the possibilities

Who would have thought a local band could sing like this? Embrace it people. Love it.

Cause i do! =)

If you like this try...

Estrella- Stay

Estranged- Itu Kamu

Amongst others...

O@G, Pop Shuvit, One Buck Short.

2012

2009-11-17T10:09:00.000-08:00

This movie had a lil tête a tête with Beverly hills, did some major ass-whacking plastic surgery, went for a spa bath in Hollywood, gulp down a sea full of Titanic-U-Jump-I-Jump and a large dose of opium...

And the last continent standing had to be Africa!

Now don't get me wrong, i've got nothing against african-americans, and mocha people in general

Heck i love Africans, from their culture right down to their Darlie-ad smiles.

But.. COME ON! Understandably Obama is the US President. Still, it's at its borderline.... until it pulls it up a notch, and goes over the top with the geologist/archaeologist!

Gord, What a suck up.

Unfortunately the only thing (barely) holding this movie up, would be it's mind-blowing, on the edge, special Fex.

Fortunately, the cinematography, along with it's fancy special fex makes for a very good cover-up to it's... ineffable, generic of clichés, plot.

This is a bad bad movie, with really good actors and superb effects.

So go watch it, but try not to expect too much.

And you'll feel exhilarated.

Which can also be from that opium earlier on...

Lovely.

2009-11-16T22:53:00.000-08:00

I've not seen The Hannah Montana Movie, so i've no idea whether it's a good movie or not.

But this song rocks. =)

enjoy.

Crazier-Taylor Swift

I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Til' you opened the door
And there's so much more
I'd never seen it before
I was tryin' to fly but I couldn't find wings
But you came along and changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me Crazier Crazier Crazier

I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier

Ohhhh

Baby you showed me what livin' is for
I don't wanna hide anymore
Oh Ohh

You lift my feet off the ground
You take me away
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier
Crazier Crazier

Our Mini GirlsNightOut. =)

2009-11-08T22:21:00.000-08:00

Since Veven already describe it in short and precise notes how our night went, i'll just go ahead and paste her version here =)

Veven's Version
let's see...
- we went to a japanese restaurant with terrible services!
- we tabao chicken wing since vr still hungry.
- went back to ven's hs
- open a bottle of wine
- K ditch us and ran away wif dex
- S and V did chased after dex's peugeot. but failed.
- S and V fight over the last piece of chicken wing.
- watch a low budget horror movie (actress sucks)
- finished a bottle of wine
- continue with vodka
- finish half bottle of vodka in 30mins (time recorded by V's dad)
- A was really drunk.
- S asisted A to bed.
- A fell off the bed, knocked her head to a glass and broke V's f-ing bedside table no.1 , she laughed n hit V's boobs. =.=
- V puked!
- again S asisted V to bed.
- lights off!!
- S started runing around the room in the dark while A and V were sleeping.
- S puked! (spotted by V's dad n sista)
- S went back to the room continue running around in the dark...
- S felt tired and went to bed after running too much.
- S fell off the bed and knock her head on V's bedside table no. 2!!
- S went back up the bed.
- after a while, S fell down from the bed AGAIN!
- S fed up of getting up, so she slept on the floor.
- V realise that S starting to make some sort of noise on the floor.
- V saw S making love wif a booster.
- about 3am++, V woke up thanx to "S and A the sisters kicker". Somehow, S was on the bed not on the floor.
- V start snaping pics of S and A. (go hav a look, u'll be amaze!!)
- V somehow manage to get back to bed.
- V accidentally woke A at bout 5am.
- V and A then laughed and woke S.
- A, S and V starting gossiping and talking bad bout K and T!!
- A puked! FINALLY!
- A, S and V continued talking bad bout K and T until 10am.
* thats basically everything!* =P
PS- I DID NOT PUKE! no i did not! i would remember if i DID!!!
i did not!

Will upload pictures next post! =)

Shit.

2009-11-01T03:39:00.000-08:00

I wish my life is a joke,

then I could get to the real thing.

Crossing over that bridge.

2009-10-30T13:48:00.000-07:00

In life, we're frequently forced to make hard decisions...

and when indecisiveness occurred, we'd turned to our lover,spouse,relatives and direct families....

As usual,we'd turn to the one that understands us most, the one that's going through the same issues, ones that are having similar heartaches . The one that we could talk about everything to..

More often then not, we'd turn to our best friends.

Yes, given that parents have been through it all. Being experienced, parents are able to dish out wise quotations, and life lessons learnt the hard way. Perhaps living by this rule ,they in fact have moved on from this phase in life. And by moving on, they would have already forgotten what it's like, how hard it has been for them when they were in their young, tender years.

We laugh now, nostalgic bout our times as a gullible little kid... being punished and all.

Comparing cane marks, and brutal scars. But let's face it, what we don't recall are the pains of growing up from that stage.

The abuse of our freshman parents, not knowing how to handle a child's psych and raw emotions, lashing out at us with a wrath that's absolutely unacceptable for a small crime committed.

We've all been there as a kid.

But we're no longer the same child, and that being said, cannot connect with another kid. Not the way a kid could. Not with play-acting and imaginations.

We've move passed that.

And times have changed, we're no longer brought up the way our parents were. The same solution cannot apply to a different, albeit similar problem. The answer is obsolete. History doesn't repeats itself in the same pattern. We would always have to change to fit in with society. And it's harder to understand when you have a whole decade of differences to figure out...

Hence it's peers we turn to at our times of need.

But what if a major decision in life involves the very peers we turn to... our best friend, our la confidante?

What if our closest buddy don't see eye to eye with us any more.

An intervention.

Suddenly, you're not as close as you used to be..

and everything feels like it's falling apart.

What if the shortcomings we used to compromise with, turned and backfired...

What if suddenly, your friend could not stand the you stir your tea, and tap the edges with your spoon.

Or if you gets annoyed whenever your friend drops over anytime without asking for permission first.

What if every little thing they did gets on each other's nerves...

What if friendship expired each other without the people involve even realizing it?

Unresolved issue starts to arise. And both unable to make out what's eating them inside out.

The ultimate question is played over and over again, like a broken record.

What's different then before...?

What once was a beautiful friendship between two people aren't working any longer.

No longer walking the same paths.

Mindsets begin to gravitate to those similar to their own..

and opinions begin differ...

And after endless arguments, months and months of awkward silences, both unwilling to yield, and ready to snap.

One at her wits ends trying to change to fit in..

while the other not seeing it, insisting on a change.

And when one can no longer accept a behaviour or habit, they stop compromising for it.

They outgrew a person...

They stop calling

Stop keeping in touch.

And when they do that, suddenly it hits them.

Life had simply just move on.

That all those bitter quarrels were just stepping stones to be crossed.

That there was no point in arguing because neither was right nor wrong.

They were simply just...

Different.

The change was painful.

It was heartbreaking.

The realization brought tears streaming down my face...

I never thought they day would come where I'd had to cross this bridge.

Some things can never be worked out.

Because there was nothing to work out in the first place.

Sometimes in life, when compromising doesn't do the job, we're left only with one choice.

Submission.

To the fact that we no longer "click" the way we use to.

To the fact that we can't change everybody to suit our lifestyle and needs.

That our wants and desires had evolved.

The fact that we need different things from a friendship.

And finally, that our characters have just outlived each other.

Dear Friend,

I know perhaps thing have not been all warm and shibby shibby between us. But i will and always remain, a friend that you can fall back on when the world's a bitter place.

That's is all. I wish you the best life can offer, wherever you are going next.

Sandy

/Where did i go wrong,
I lost a friend,
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And i would have stayed up with you all night
Had i known, how to save a life.'
-The Fray

Fireworks on 31st August 09.

2009-09-14T11:13:00.001-07:00

Photography in Genting's First World rooftop, for Merdeka's Day. =) Enjoy.

ps- i'm using my kit lens so it's not that good. but hey, it works!

Finallly.

2009-09-14T10:22:00.000-07:00

Finally got over it.

The pain, the anger, the arduous weeks of torment.

The finale of consequential results.

The crazy arguements and insults.

Knowledge is truly the key to success.

And that applies to this.

Finally settling back to my rationale self.

Finally undeluded.

Finally concious.

Finally seen the light.

Waking up from a nightmare.

Finally.

Some people think that it's holding on that makes one strong. In reality, it's letting go. -MetroDad-

PS- picture is MINE MINE MINE! taken by MEEEEEEEE! =P booya!

Happy Birthday Girls!

2009-06-26T21:19:00.000-07:00

happy (official) birthday to the two gilarers! FeiYan an WaiKwannie the Apprentice.

Thanks a lot for inviting me to your "party" =) hugshugshugs!

too bad i ain't got no pictures.

~sandy.

ps- RIP M.J.

Time

2009-06-22T05:42:00.000-07:00

Time is a very objective matter.

To say that one has no time , in my opinion is total BullSht.

It's a matter of how badly you want something.

It's a matter of how much a part of yourself you're willing to give for something to thrive.

It's about having enough love, passion,dedication and sacrifice.

Then again sometimes the matter is pretty subjective.

Like no matter how much time you've wasted to change a person's character it won't change, unless that person wants and welcomes the change.

Or how much time you spend wasting on someone who won't love you back.

Or sometimes, how much time you spend trying to find a miracle cure to all of life's unfairness and misery,

Or even wishing for a love one to come back to life.

You only have time if you're alive and living on earth right?

hence,

Time= Amount of LIFE TIME

No Time= No lifetime

So you're pretty much dead then.

If one's so obsessed about making use of all the time one has on earth, one will probably accumulate enough stress to have die young. Might as well smoke ten packets of ciggarettes a day me thinks.

So stop waiting to come alive. Start now.

Quit The One Academy.

Spaceship

2009-06-14T01:35:00.000-07:00

Was doing my spaceship and i ended up drawing this...

And this was last Friday.

Now it's even worse.

ugh.

Foever and Always - Taylor Swift.

2009-06-13T08:41:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye

And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me

Were you just kidding?
'cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened, please tell me?

'cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide
Like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure

So here's everything coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, I don't think so

Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything
Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything

'cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always

Oh, I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, you said forever and always I don't think so yeah

Sometimes good things break apart so better things can happen- Anonymous.

That's my boy.

2009-06-06T23:49:00.000-07:00

Here's Diamond the male-and-manly dog reacting to a Toy Plushy.

That's my boy. =D

Kids say the darnest things...

2009-06-02T12:13:00.000-07:00

ROFL.

One time my other cousin (who was about 4 at that time) really did not like her mom's err... big-boned coworker. The woman asked her for a hug and she said, "You know, if I hug you, I'm scared I'm going to bounce back farrrrrr farrrrr away!" -laura driver

When my son was about 3, I painted his tiny toes with metallic blue polish (because he'd asked - not my idea). When I was done, he signed dramatically, looked at his feet and said happily, "Now I'm a REAL boy.

-whit

As I was drying my 5-year-old son after his bath, my 3-year-old daughter pointed at his chest and asked "What are those?", referring to his nipples. I said "Those are nipples, sweetie, everyone has them." My son then informed my daughter that hers will get bigger, and when she's a grown-up she will be able to "milk a baby."-Kathy S.

My children's school had a mock election. My little Kindergartner was asked to tell the class who he was voting for and why.

He said "I'm voting for Ahrocka Nabama because my Mom says the white guy is old and he tells lies"-KellyGreenT.

i Have no idea why, but this cracks me up...

We were kids (she was around 8) attending Catholic mass and got to the portion of the mass where the congregation is supposed to respond "Lord I am not worthy to receive you but only say the word and I shall be healed." This is right before communion. My sister had her head bowed, hands folded and intoned solemnly, "Lord I am not worthy to receive you but only say the word and I shall eat you."-Susan.C

and finally...

My daughter, age 3, from the back seat as we drove by something strange:

"What the hell??!"

Me: "Honey, um, you really shouldn't say hell."

3yo daughter: "Oh, I didn't say hell. I said health, god damnit."- Kate

ROFL!

As rare as it is....

2009-06-02T11:20:00.001-07:00

I was reading other bloggers blogs.

Well not just any blogger.

I'm pretty much a self-absorbed lil fry who's stuck in her own artsy fartsy fantasy land.

But i just adore these blogs. They made my day (or early morn)!

http://www.karencheng.com.au

http://metrodad.typepad.com/

I'm debating with myself on which camera should i buy.

would it be a Nikon or a Canon?

recommendations pulease! =)

Now i'm off to finish that darn 2d animation.

Adieu!

Grab a gun.

2009-05-31T02:20:00.000-07:00

To whom it may concern.

Please knock me unconcious,and leave me on a deserted highway for vultures to feed on my decomposing corpse.

Oh wait.

Before that, please burn all my assignments and shoot me.

thank you! =)

Yours sincerely

Sandy.

ps- please don't. i mean really.. i don't mean it. i've still got tons of assignment to do. really.

really. ==

Blubber.

2009-05-16T21:29:00.000-07:00

hw.

Lifedrawing

- BasicBodyShapes(?)

Drawing 4 Animation

-Stapler Topography

-Spacecraft Perspective

2D animation.

-Flipbook 1,2

Typo

-Typography Research.

-Helvetica Font

Moral

-Moral Buddhism REsearch, tripitaka and mahayana buddhism

C.Character design class

-Expression Table.

First week.

who's got a gun?

An Abandoned Mansion.

2009-05-08T12:34:00.000-07:00

Abandoned Mansion. (2006/7)

A draught howls through the cracks of the broken windows. Its hinges cried out in pain, on the verge of breaking loose. The crumbly walls moaned and grumbled bitterly as the morning train rumbled pass, shrieking like a hyena. Pieces of ceiling crashed onto the ground, breaking into tiny bits. Mice feeding nearby scampered quickly, frighten out of their lives.

An abandoned playpen covered with flakes of dust, had turned into a nest for a bitch’s litter. The puppies whimpered in fear of the strange sounds. Termites ran all over the wooden furniture, chewing away at an old armchair with delight. An empty box of cigarettes lies on the floor suggestively; tiny specks of ashes hidden away like a secret. A clockwork clown with its head broken off still smiled away with irony.

Dawn slipped away, leaving no trace of its existence. A parched puppy finds its way to a broken pipe. The scorching sun burns down mercilessly on the yard of overflowing weeds. Its glare pierced through every crack and cranny. Critters and vermin alike hid beneath the manors shadow; slept soundly, shield from its cruel rays. Bells shrilling loudly as chattering primary kids tumbled out of the gates in a flood. Haunted; whispered naughty children, nudging each other as they skipped pass in a devil may care manner.

Suddenly, the sky cracked its whip and droplets pattered down on the roof shingles hesitantly, as if fearing that it would break. There was another thunderous roar and the rain pours down with gusto. Surrounding weeds drinks up the moisture like thirsty drunkards. Water dripped from the leaky roof. Bits and pieces of broken toys floated by, bobbing around cheerily. The bitch scampered onto higher grounds, gently cradling its youngest in its jaws, as the rest scampered and stumbled along trying not to get soaked by the incoming flood.

Finally the rain stopped. Sharp rays peeked through from the horizon, draping a soft sheen on the wet tiles. A nearby mosque began to chant its prayers in a singsong fashion, a longing in its hollow hymn, as the sun sinks until it completely disappears. Crickets join along by playing their own melody, caroling away into the starless night. The birds retreat into a warm nest they had made in a hole at the ceiling. A small breeze whispered sweet nothings as the menacing house and its furry comrades slipped into a carefree slumber.

-End-

A short descriptive essay dedicated to my nostalgic childhood memory of an old old house in Ipoh that once held eleven kids and two dogs..

I could still hear the sound of that mosque going at five to six... and the train rumbling past at dawn.

And the constant chill of that grey marble floor...

Poem. =3

2009-05-08T12:23:00.000-07:00

I wrote this when i was in form two i think.

Found it in one of my homemade "school diary".

Well here goes nothing.

Tear off the clouds, and you'll see the sun
Tear off your worries and the day begin.
Mend and heal the wound inside,
Laugh and wave your worries aside,

Perhaps the world will deem brighter
And the sun will shine today.
The rain and tears a dust of the past
The sorrow fades away.

Slowly, a path will open
And hope will rise within
Slowly the stab will turn into a sting
And dissolve into a dull ache.

The aching heart will start to mend.
And soon, none but a scar.
To remind you of a battle of rage.
The bloodied wear of war.

Mother's Day..... is for My Mother. =D

2009-05-06T11:28:00.000-07:00

-Fun Facts-

Mother's Day has not been around since forever! It's been invented by Anna Jarvis on MAY 12Th 1914 for her belated mom in the United States and was made known and official around the world since then. Hence, it's is a pretty 'young' day as it was 'born' in the 20Th century.

What "Mother" Means

"Mother" is such a simple word,
But to me there’s meaning seldom heard.
For everything I am today,
My mother’s love showed me the way.

I’ll love my mother all my days,
For enriching my life in so many ways.
She set me straight and then set me free,
And that’s what the word "mother" means to me.

Thanks for being a wonderful mother, Mom!

By Karl Fuchs

Personally i have no likings for miley cyrus (except for the hannah montana shows which are granted, pretty hilarious.) But here's a song that sings out what Mom means to me =)

I Learn From You - Miley and Billy Ray.

-chorus-

'I learned from you that I do not crumble
I learned that strength is something you choose
All of the reasons to keep on believin',
There's no question, that's a lesson
I learned from you '

If there's anything i learn from my mother, i learn to have an open heart.

I learn generosity.

I learn forgiveness.

And most of all, i learn that material goods can never bring happiness like the people you love

It's true that my mom's not much of a cook.

But she's one hell of an organizer and a hostess.

It's true that my mom can't make handicrafts, or doesn't read us bedtime stories.

But she can make a whole crowd roar in laughter, with her off-keyed quips and toothy grins.

My mom is strong-willed woman and a loud one, literally and figuratively.

She follows fashion trends, plays Facebook , and leave messages on my ex's wall.

She complains her daughters are outdated!

And she follows canto dramas,

falls asleep watching canto dramas

and rewatch it the next day after work

and falls asleep again.

She makes all her juniors at work squirm in fear,

and yet she fail to make us listen.

She's inquisitive, and willing. Laughs at her mistakes.

Hot tempered and impatient.

My mother learns English to teach us.

Scolds us when she's wrong

Scolds us when we tell her she's wrong

Scolds us when she's right.

Scolds us when we are slow at getting it right.

A tigress.

Mom...

There's nothing i could say to describe to you how much i love you.

You rock! =)

And i wouldn't want a better mother.

Cause you're the best mom out there.

teehee! =)

So all i wanna say is...

I love you MOM!

Have a great Mumsie Day! =DDD

*coughs*corny*coughs*

but i mean every word. =)

And in another totally unrelated matter, i would like to post this La Work Of Artistry.

This is what's REALLY HAPPENING in those seven weeks of DRAMA class.

Can you spell torture? hehe !

Yes ah-hiao. i still have the picture.

BOOYA! =D

Movies Galore.

2009-04-29T09:25:00.001-07:00

I've been watching a lot of movies due to the fact that i was dragged,cajoled , asked and invited by friends around me. Also due to the fact that i have too much free time at hand.

Slumdog Millionaire(4.5out of 5 stars.)

It's the new era's Shakespeare sonnet, played into a movie, that speaks of love and tragedy.

Although there are some parts where the characters appears to not fit in(how could someone who does not learn English suddenly knows how to do so, ,perfected with an accent?) the whole movie was all in all a new breathe of fresh air. I like how the movie started out, though it could've ended on a more convincing note(The ending was too corny.). It's also an eye-opener to the lives of people living in slum areas of India, and brushes lightly on how religion,power and greed turns humanity into animals.

The Reader(3.5 out of 5 stars)

This is something rather different from your usual cup of romance. I'm not sure whether it's played in cinema's due to it's "obscene" amount of sex scenes which lasted few second of in-betweens (or more). The starting of the movie is actually rather confusing, but story unravels as the plot thickens. All in all i thought this is a good movie if one loves the mystery of figuring out what is it about. If you love Benjamin Button, i've no doubt that you would scoop and swallow this movie like you would a sundae on a hot day. The only problem is having the patience to sit down and watch it. And the other problem is having knowing enough to figure what the hell they are talking about.

Curious Case of Benjamin Button( 3.5 out of 5 stars)

What makes this movie so wonderful, is the fact that it's so believable. Cate blanchett and Brad Pitt's acting blows life into the characters, which was of course, made more believable with special effects.

It's whimsical, heart-jarring and depressing.

It's the kind of movie which picks on your nostalgia.

Then again, it's the kind of movie where you wouldn't want to watch again.

It's a reallyyyy slooowwwwwww movie.

Make It Happen(2 out of 5 stars)

Unfotunately this movie falls short of creativity, emotions and substance. The plot is predictable and the dance routine is not exactly mind-blowing. It's too much like a combination of Step-Up and Coyote Ugly . The idea of small town girl making it big in city is too overrated till it's a bore.

rated two stars for effort.

Talentime(4 out of 5 stars)

This movie is a great movie for locals by local (Yasmin Ahmad). Unfortunately the ending falls short off course and it's very "the-potong-steamlah". It manages to depict malaysians in an artistic way and like Slumdog Millionaire, touches lightly on racial issues and the difference between values and fortunes. It's a mixture of melancholy and humour.Certain scenes will hit home. Highly recommended.This is the kind of movie that you'll want to watch again. However, some of the acting are dramatic to the point of embarassment. A good plot with a great twist.

Son of Rambow.(4 out of 5 stars)

A sweet comedy. It's jsut great =) highly recommended. A rascal who's a bully and an innocent, religious young boy against the whole world. great plot and sweet ending.

Mall Cop.(2 out of 5)

Funny. lame. lame. funny. not hilarious unfortunately. It's a bit sad really. I liked the lead actor from "Big Jim" alot. dissapointing.

Yes Man(4 out of 5 stars)

Jim Carrey is the best! THis is a great movie for a good laugh.

Highly recommended-
-Son of Rambow
-Talentime
-Slumdog Millionaire

that's about it. there's more, but i'm lazy =)

A walk to remember with M and D.

2009-04-29T05:13:00.001-07:00

I spy with my little eye from a swing in the garden...

and i saw... wait a minute, what's that???

Is that my PARENTS on the seesaw?

MY parents?

Hell yeah. =D

Daddy

Mommy

Parents.

Nikki the moving barking brown rug.

Shows great potential in becoming the next Tyra Banks.

Mom showing some leg.

Walking the dawggies.

Bulldawg

Actually it's a Pug.

It's as small as a... welll... it's small.

Two cats spitting at each other, so into it till they didn't even notice me.

That's all for the photo dump.

One last thing though =)

Happy birthday to King Zen who's turning old(er).

TWENTY -TWO

I think. =P

May you look like this forever =)

Hey, it's cute! haha!

Happy birthday!! =)

Lord of the Flies...zzz.....

2009-04-25T12:31:00.001-07:00

I was googling ....

(Yes i google alot. i google all kinds of bullcrap. that includes twilight reviews of the book. it was HILARIOUS. and yes, i despise the book. *vomitts bloodduh*)

...about movie reviews on Lord of the Flies.

Fun fact- i think that it's LITERATURE in United States for eigth graders? Like how Phantom of the Opera is literature for us here.

ANYWAYS, as i was saying, i stumbled across this incredulous review on the movie.

And here it is...

Review By Owen Gleiberman

It sounded like a recipe for vulgarity, if not outright disaster: Take William Golding's 1954 novel about a group of British schoolboys who descend into savagery when stranded on an uninhabited island and do a contemporary American update. The first surprise is that it works at all (This sounds like a mock compliment. it's like saying, i'm surprised you're even born.). The second surprise is that it works better than Peter Brook's 1963 English version did.
Brook's film, shot in black and white, had a rocky, ascetic plainness. Here, the English director Harry Hook (The Kitchen Toto) goes in the opposite direction: His island is an orgy of lush, towering greenery rendered in a swift yet luxurious hyperrealist camera style. For a while, the movie is stilted and unconvincing (in reaching the island, none of the prepubescent kids even cries). But then the drama begins to settle in.
From the outset, these rock-'em, sock-'em American kids are far cockier — more casually amoral — than Golding's genteel British schoolboys were. They're closer to their ids to begin with (even if they do resemble the junior division of the Dead Poets Society). The solid, ingenuous Ralph (Balthazar Getty) now seems a bit of a stiff. He's right to want to keep the signal fire going, yet it's easy to see why the wild, irresponsible Jack (Chris Furrh, in a charged performance) commands respect. He's a strutting young narcissist, a party animal. Who needs adults when you have pigs to kill?
If Golding's novel about the Beast Within Us All remains a schoolroom perennial, that's probably because it's the first book most of us encounter that makes symbolism seem fun. Beneath all the pigheaded allegory, it's a damn good story, a yarn. Yet when you read it in the eighth grade, it also made you feel like an adult.
The symbolism is still too literary to translate well to the screen. Much of it seems hokey and anachronistic too — especially the business with the conch and the entire character of Piggy (Danuel Pipoly), who comes off here as a big, blobby crybaby and hardly the representative voice of reason. Still, as staged by Hook, the story retains much of its fairy-tale power. As a novel, Lord of the Flies never was much more than a Brat Pack Heart of Darkness. It's doubtful a screen version could be any better than this one.

Okay, granted he did not gave an outright ol' bashing-and-a-spit to it. But he did sounded like he was close to cussing, and giving an expectantly loud rah rah on how much time he has wasted, before damning it to hell.. If this doesn't sound like a disgruntled, unsatisfied movie-goer, i don't know what is.

And guess what he rated the movie?

B+

like what the heavens-lordily-cushions-above is wrong with you?! Do you have issues man?

Talk about suppressed anger.

i wouldn't want him to rate my film. He'd probably scare all the reviewers away before they could even reach the rating @_@/ by then, it won't even matter if it's rated as A+++.

http://www.ew.com/ew/article/0,,316943,00.html

PS- LORD OF THE FLIES, is a wicked movie. Okay, maybe not WICKED wicked, but it IS pretty interesting. . =) watch it. If you don't like it? well you could always opt to bitch about this reviewer. =D

BTW i've JUST finished watching Son of Rambow! Great Brit Movie. =D WICKED.

Meme?

2009-04-23T11:45:00.000-07:00

WARNING - Things written below might cause one to regurgitate and expectorate sticky mass of smelly energy substance due to severe allergy reactions caused by the wastage of the amount of valuable time in processing redundant information. Bloggers and viewers alike please be cautioned.

1. What's Ann Yee to you?
Ann Yee? Pfft, she's nothing to me except my bestie that holds all my deepest, darkest secrets.
(WHAT?!?)

2. What is Hsu Ann's favorite TV show or movie?
This girl rarely tunes in to the idiot box. Which is cool! but AsianFoodChannel should be it. Or anything that contains action, comedy and sporty stuff. This is one fit Laedeh!

3. If Veven and Wei Wei teamed up, what would they most likely accomplish?
God i Love this question! If they team up, they could probably conquer the world! Or sit down and break the Guiness World Records for world's longest length of time for bullshitting~! Or eat all the ice-creams in the universe, then run around in circles from all the sugar-rush =D

or then again, maybe they'll just accomplish staring at each other in wonder and amusement.

4. How do your and Justin De Souza's talents add up?
We use to ber-drama together-gather. YA THINK?
Think DRAMATIC.

5. Oh no, Mandy got kidnapped by aliens! What do you say once they get back?
"Here are her clothes, toothbrush and pajamas! Anything else you need? "
(UH, who's getting back again? =D)

6. What's your fondest memory of Hui Ling?
Everything. From digging worms and scooping tadpoles, to chasing grasshoppers and climbing trees. You name it! Fondest? Prolly Sleepovers =)

7. Do you love Wei Wei?
Love her? PAH! I am generally her personal Stalker! i adore her from the bottom of whatever is left of my tiny heart. =) But i am more infatuated with her Furry Shih Tzu! ><

8. Does CY have any pets?
Not that i know of. (Besides, who needs pets when you have younger siblings >=) hehehe.)
Does a mangy stray dog counts? and plenty of fishes!

9. What would you do without Joe?
Be depressed and suicidal. She's sunshine on a rainy day!

10. What's Kah Vern to you?
A replacement of a pet =D

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I like the ending message. It's time for me to do something productive now. Adieu!

This post is dedicated to my dear friend, Aaronninny-kins.. (hereth he shalt henceforth be known)

2009-04-22T07:19:00.000-07:00

aaron says:
hello

I'm a Doodlin' (L) (Word of the day EXPECTORATE- to discharge matter from throat or lung) says:
hey girl

I'm a Doodlin' (L) (Word of the day EXPECTORATE- to discharge matter from throat or lung) says:
=)

aaron says:
==

I'm a Doodlin' (L) (Word of the day EXPECTORATE- to discharge matter from throat or lung) says:
soooo

I'm a Doodlin' (L) (Word of the day EXPECTORATE- to discharge matter from throat or lung) says:
how are you holidays my sugarpiehoneybuns?

aaron says:
boringggg

I'm a Doodlin' (L) (Word of the day EXPECTORATE- to discharge matter from throat or lung) says:
aaronninny-kins

aaron says:
are you high or something

I'm a Doodlin' (L) (Word of the day EXPECTORATE- to discharge matter from throat or lung) says:
=D well that's catchy

I'm a Doodlin' (L) (Word of the day EXPECTORATE- to discharge matter from throat or lung) says:
aaronninny-kins

aaron says:
oh no wait this is your usual self

I'm a Doodlin' (L) (Word of the day EXPECTORATE- to discharge matter from throat or lung) says:
aaronninny-kinsaaronninny-kinsaaronninny-kinsaaronninny-kinsaaronninny-kinsaaronninny-kins

I'm a Doodlin' (L) (Word of the day EXPECTORATE- to discharge matter from throat or lung) says:
aaronninny-kins aaronninny-kins

aaron says:
shut up sandywandy

I'm a Doodlin' (L) (Word of the day EXPECTORATE- to discharge matter from throat or lung) says:
aaronninny-kins.

And they say college life was easier...

2009-04-12T12:24:00.000-07:00

My first meme mommy!

I'm over-excited for next sem =D!

Mundane.

2009-04-12T01:47:00.000-07:00

I'm going to make a list of to-do things right here and right now.

Sandy's All-talk TO-DO list. ( It's not all talk. i will fullfill MOST of it. at least 8/10.. i think.)

I WILL.

1- Finish my parent's portrait. (and the picture frame!!oh crap, that makes two pointers.)

1 1/2- Picture frraaammeee... with hearts and flowers on it.... (*Grumbles*)

2- Go to the beach (I've been ranting on and on about this... now how do i get there again?)

(Know what? scratch this. it's not even IMPORTANT.... but it is... REJUVENATING.)

(It's important.)

3- Catch up on EXERCISING. De-tox lar!

4- Wake up EARLY everyday. BY EIGHT A.M!!!!! (Trying to change my nocturnal nature....)

5- Attend driving seminars. Period.

( I shall call Mrs.Chin. I shall call MRs.chin I shall Call mrs Chin. I shall make myself go thourgh five to eight hateful hours of lecture. i shall call MRs Chin or die trying and i shall stop ranting on and on...... )

6- GEt a part-time job!

7- Catch up with all my buddies from the mountain and below.

8- Practise, practise, practise. practise on my "skills". Set a target, um a BOOKFUL of life sketches. and Um and... and my parent's portrait. for now la ok. =D

I think that's about it....

Oh ONE MORE...

9- I will take photos what i've been doing on semester break and update my dying blog!

SO THERE!

is that it?? that's wayyyy to short.

Oh.. LAST ONE!

10- Get guitar lessons.

But first, i need to get a guitar.

11- Save money from part-time job FOR guitar.

Right.

That oughta wrap it up =)!

Maybe next i'll post my Bucket List.

List of to-dos before i kick the bucket =DD!

Btw, any other suggestions on how to spend the hols??!??!?! ANYONE?

Sandy Passssseeed!

2009-04-12T01:46:00.000-07:00

MWAHAHHAhahAHhAHAhAHAHhAhAHaH!

now where's my ice-cream people? =)

Sandifer the fallen...

2009-04-05T07:52:00.001-07:00

Hello everyone!

I have done the impossible.
I have doomed myself in every way possible.
I have caused devastation to occur in my world, and it was earth-shattering...

i have failed my undang test.

by ONE mark.

I shall never look down on theory examination ever again.
Thou shlat suffereth the consequenseth of thye last minuteth practice.
And thou shal payeth fiftieth riggiteth thyself.

Do not weep for me my friends... for i shall venture once again into the deep abyss of the twisted ways of UNDANG-UNDANG.

And i shall conquer it with vengance!!! RAWRRRR!!

ps- if i fail this week, i shall belanja every person i met within this week an ice-cream, SO THERE!

(omigawd... i better pass weh)

ON the OTHER HAND. IF YOU ASK ME BOUT MY UNDANG, and i PASSED.....

YOU have to belanja ME ice-cream!!! mwahahhahahahhaha~!

by the way people, my test is this wednesday. wish me luck =)

-------never again shall i practise on a morning of a test >< -----------

Introducing an intoxicated Milk =)

2009-03-15T11:49:00.000-07:00

Dear Susu Yang Busuk.

Thanks for making this world a much much better place!

What would i do without you? =D

Yes, Hsu Ann's almost drunk. =)

Love love love you girl! HUGGLES!

Sigh...

2009-03-11T10:33:00.000-07:00

I feel despondent.

i feel dejected,doleful.

I feel like sometimes, i'm fighting a losing battle, an endless altercation.

Feel like maybe, it's not a fight at all.

Cause i'm at the losing corner.

cause i don't know what i'm up against, or what i'm fighting for.

Am i really such a person, so careless, so mindless and so.... blithe in everything i do?

Cause right now i've given up on trying to validate anything.

cause right now the it hurts to much to try.

And i've lost all my vigor.

Right now a big part of my dignity is ripped into pieces.

It'll take awhile to patch it up again.

But no worries, cause eventually, everything will be alright.

Soon.

CNY celebration in GICC FIrst World.

2009-02-03T08:33:00.000-08:00

I hate hunting for dresses.

They are either a) Too low cut b) too tight c) too boring or d) too expensive

Next time, i should take Zi Yao's advice, and wear a HUGE t-shirt followed by a pair of faded jeans.

Then my mom will hunt me down, skin me, and simmer me on the barbeque.

Here are a few nice ones i spotted in Subang Parade, Parkson @ Sisley's.

Little grey off-shouldered dress with long slits at the sides.

Very very nice. Price tag? RM300++ (forgotten exact amount)

Not worth the material it was made of. Cotton.

This is my favourite amongst HUNDREDS of dress i tried from

Sunway Pyramid to One Utama, until i see the price tag of course. My budget was rm200.

Another LBD from Sisley's as well.

Pretty nice, with a long v slit at the back.

Very mature though.

I ended up with a dress from Genting's SODA instead.

A dress that practically screams out CNY with it's red garish flowers.

But since most of the photos posted on this blog comes from my

'semi-pro phone camera', i did not took a picture of the theorotically 'bloody dress'.

And we're off to CNY dinner in Genting International Conventions Centre.

Sis and Me, outside of GICC. Yes, this is call camwhoring.

Best photo i took that night.

Mom and Mrs. Abby Leow.

Of course there's the three siblings, growing mushrooms on their head as they listen to endless CNY songs being drooned infinitely from the stage, by some old unknown-to-me singer?

Thank God for the raw salmons in Yee Sangs'. I think that's what kept me going on eating them.

I wouldnt' mind not hearing DONGDONGDONGCHIANG for another year, and what more eating pickled stuff in the YeeSangs.

But i definitely wouldn't mind receiving angpows all year round as well =)

signing off! ~dee~

Pictures from Taiwan tripp!

2008-12-25T06:47:00.000-08:00

Upon arrival at the Taiwan International Airport, the ladies in the group decides to take a group picture.

Or more specifically, we were "dragged" by MOM to take our first picture.

Huddling together for warmth from the freezing temperatures of taiwan!

It's winter there at that time =)

Myself/Mom/Ee-Ee/Xi Xuan(sleeping baby) Xi ying(Lil Girl)/ G-Kim/Gramma/

Hao Jie(boy with goofy smile)

Here's a picture BEFORE we flew to taiwan.

Yeap. As you can see, i was bloody exhausted from

staying up all night doing my workshop assignments and sending

them to Victor and Johnny and Chea Wen =) thanks guys!!

Here are a few random shots i took from the streets...

Here's a sight you don't see everyday! =D Carrying gas on motorbikes.

I wouldn't mess with this guy.

He could cause much damage if he crashed... nuff' said!

Another random shot of the city view from a bystander view.

This guy was obviously rushing off.

Wonder why? =)

View from the bus, a pink thing speeding by.

And lo behold, i manage to capture it's image with my 'semi-pro k700i fon camera'

My lil cousins were all gawking at it =)

I couldn't include all the pictures due to the limited space in this silly blog.

However, upon my visitation of this foregin land called taiwan, i've summed it all up to multiple things.

Taiwan = ChowTauFu+Night Markets+ Dogs+ Tallest-Building-in-the-world-for-now + Japanese food craze + Fancy Skyscrapers+ Super-long-drama-that-takes-forever-to-end.

And yes, taiwan is like a mini japan. They are CRAZY about jap food.

And karaoke.

If you want a show that NEVER ends, and i mean NEVER, always opt for taiwanese hokkien drama. Why? because you get to watch the baby in the show grows up, wear diapers, go to pre-school, high school, college, get married, get betrayed, cry and eventually died of some sort of scandal as his/her wife or husband cheated on him/her... then the company get takes over by some bastard Sonovab*tch which gets a heart attack and dies as well.

in fact, you might soon began to build an emotional bond that a mother would have to a kid.

Except of course,technically speaking the baby doesn't actually exist in your life .

Who said you have to be a mother to experience the joy of giving birth?

Ok, back to the pictures.

First stop upon arrival is no other then the Chang Kai-Shek Memorial building.

First president of Taiwan.

CHeck out the size of the entrance. And that's not even the door to the building.

The whole of taiwan funded to build this. Just compare the size of the teeny beings and the Memorial Hall.

Here's the view FROM THE FRONT of the MEMORIAL HALL.

And yes, the "entrance" on the first picture is the same as the semi-middle 'building' in this picture.

The whole buidling has three floors, and there was a photo exhibition running, talking bout the origins of hokkien people.

During the olden days, hokkien and hakka are super enemies.

And they practically will kill each other if they see each other.

That of course, only happens in china.

Together with the pictures. i've enclosed the photographer and the date/title. So if you guys wanna look it up, you can. =)

Everybody Having a Good Time/Miaoli City.

Photo by-Chiu Teh-Yun

This one has a pretty interesting title.

Everybody having a good time, just by sitting on rocks and walls, chatting away with glee!

Thirsty/Miaoli City

Photo by- Luo Han-Chang.

I thought the title for this picture is brilliant!

Thirst for candies. Contradictory statement.

It brings out the kid's expression.

Tug of War/ Miaoli City 1970

Photo by- Chen Yun-Chin

Simple games that brings out the competitive spirit in kids.

The "line" is a row of slippers. Creative.

This is one of my favourites. Unfortunately i forget to note down the title.

It shows a group of village kids having fun with TIRES, creating a game by rolling it to compete who can roll it faster. Who needs PSP when you have TIRES?

Girl selling Noodles/ Nei-Wen, Hsinchu 1964

Photo by -Yeh Tsai

My dad said that during his childhood times, travelling from kl to ipoh would take forever, sometimes days. This is due to the many stops, to load passengers from everywhere.During this stops, there will be people at the station carrying a tray(just like the girl in the picture) filled with nasi lemak and mee goreng (on plates), selling them to the passengers on board. They would walk in the train and yell out "NASII LEMAKKKK, MEEE GOREENNNGGGG"

And just as the train is taking off, the 'train-steward(ess)' would jump off like troupe of expert gymnast...

Taking care of pigs and kids/Nei-pu, Pingtung 1967

Photo by- Lee Hsiu-yun.

Food for pigs, pram for kids. Women are multi-taskers.

Love the pram.

Cooling off on a hot day/ Taitung 1970s

photo by- Fan yuan-yu

This bring back more fond memories of my own childhood. =)

Having a small bucket of water, and being small enough to squeeze into it!

Herding Young Duckling/HungJiWan, Miaoli City.

Photo by-Hsieh Chi-ji

This was the main photo for the whole exhibition, talking about the hard work of hokkien people, that even a child at such tender years did not escape the everyday chores in the village.

Children were trained from young to help their parents.

Sweet Native Child/Guanshan, Taitung 1967

Photo by-Liu Yuan-li.

This shot is so natural, filled with oblivous smiles at the innocence of a child.

Finally, the statue of a kid whispering to his granny.

Touching ^^.

ps- there are more statues, but this one caught my eye the most!

This vid is at the memorial hall of one of the greatest emporer in taiwan. They constantly have soldiers guarind it 24/7 without moving from the post. In this vid, we can witness the exchanging of guards from their post.

Taiwan.

2008-12-16T06:42:00.001-08:00

Just got back from Taiwan, and I'm currently residing in Macau, Aunt's place.

Pictures are unavailable at the moment due to the lack of technological resource eg. wires and stuff.

Holidays have the tendency to drag you into a pit of laziness... let me sit at one place and i stay seated (which would probably be great cause it'll induce my flat arse to grow bigger=D ) or it'll make my already large tummy grow larger, and by the look of it probably would explode within a few days.

Is it ever possible to be more "pregnant" than nine months?

Visited the tallest tower(for now) in the world!!! Taiwan 101 with it hundred-and-one floors. Cost 47 yuan each for adults (AND YES I'M AN ADULT SO THERE!) and 37 for kids (?). Went up on a lift that travels 1010 miles per minute (they have something bout 1 and 0's...).

The view was ala magnifico =)

it's like taking a look out of an airplane. All the cars are teeny tiny and the buildings, the size of a fingernail(?)

Did a lot of shopping and smell alot of chao tau fuh(literal translation as SMELLY TOFU).. ewwwwww....

Taiwan reminds me of a miniature Japan. Quite a lot of restaurants have that Japanese influence and Takoyaki AND Doriyaki is one of their famous to-past-the-time snacks!

Night markets rule there. Dogs are second in command. They even sit on scooters... SCOOTERS i tell ya. Imagine that!

Right now I'm just feeling down for no reason.

Miss my last week of sem.. miss my classmates.

Miss taking my bloody class picture.

Worse of all.. miss all my final presentations.

And due one figure which i didn't pass up and probably will drag my already low marks lower.

I think.

I don't want to not fail, i want to pass with a good grade.

Guess it's not gonna happen this sem.

Sigh.

Just hoping i pass without OTP-ing At All..

sigh.

"Nobody said it was easy
Nobody said it would be this hard
I'm going back to the start."

Happy Doomsday to Me!

2008-12-08T08:14:00.000-08:00

That's geeky me and my Combo-Size Prussian White delicious Cake-o!

My birthday has the tendency to end in a series of Bad Luck like "A Series Of Unfortunate Events."

'Cept that mine's A Series of Unfortunate Birthdays.

Take my 15th birthday, had to work as a clown, had fever, AND lost my BRAND NEW PHONE (birthday present) down the drain. Nice.

However, it's my friends that turn my frown upside down , making me eager to celebrate another (horrifying) birthday =).

SOE CHEA WEN the Hiao Poh was first to greet me!!! HUGGLESSSSS!!! Thanks honey!

'cept she greet me like A DAY EARLIER. HAHA!

She tried to TRICK me and said she was OUTSIDE my house! CILAKA!

luckily i'm smart enough to not go out and see HPMPH! HAHA!

But thanks a lot honey! =D you're la besto!

Second to greet me,

Alexo Teoh Cheah Yau-o!

Sang me the birthday song through phone! AWWWW . He was half an hour early =)

After twelve (ding dong)

1) DADDY & MOMMY and LIL BRO (I LOVEEEEEEEEE YOUUUUUU GUYYYYYYSSSSS)

ps- Where's MANDY? In AIESEC CAMP. FOrgotten bout me bday *waillss*

The best part was, it's exactly at 00:oo hours they greet me. Dad still got his spunk on ya!

2) JOLENE CHEAH MIN DEE!!! AWWW GIRLLLLL!!!!!MUAXMUAXMUAXMUX!

(although i bet she saved it in her phone HAHA, most ppl do that!)

3) Leow Zi Liang! Right after i ask him what day is it! cheh! haha No la, he really remembers =) THANKS A LOT LOT LOT LOT LOTTTT! HUGGGSSS!!!!

4) YAM WOEI WEI!!!!LAME-O MONKEY!!!!! THANKS !! YOU KNOW I LOvE YOU! We'll definitely meet up soonnnnn!!

4) IVY the CLOWNIE! SURPRISE SURPRISE =) THANKS IVY TAI KAR CHEH!

That's all for the ppl who greet me the earliest of the earliest hehehheheheh!

Updates soon. TOday i've got TWO EXAMS, ONE PRESENTATION and A WHOLE LOTTA ASSIGNMENTS to finish!

GAMABTEHHHHH!!!

the hardest part....

2008-12-05T20:40:00.000-08:00

Thanks for being such a big part of my life, my better half(or worse) at times switching roles =). Providing the shelter i need from a rainy day, for caring so much more than others.

Thanks for the tolerance you gave when i wield by sharp words onto you. For the countless times when i laugh and you laugh, and times when tears well up in my eyes and you sat beside me, not knowing what to do but listen.

Thanks for the countless stunts you pull to make me laugh. For being that standing ground i need when my world is spinning faster then it already is.

I don't know what I've done to deserve you. But with each waking moment, i thank god I've met you at least once in my life...

For everything.

I will always love you.

Presenting Nikki La Fabulouso!

2008-11-21T08:47:00.000-08:00

Adorable lil Nikki =D! that would be my lil bro's voice.

Thought he was taking a picture =)

Time to slow down.

2008-11-21T08:30:00.000-08:00

Don't know if i have the strength to do this anymore.

Don't know if i have the strength to move on.

Don't know what i'm doing here anymore.

Decisions to make, people to meet, places to go, things to do...

When does it all come to and end.

When is the director gonna yell CUT.

STOP.

When is life gonna start waiting for you to catch up?

the answer is never.

time waits for no man .

Not even for a girl who's lost once again in the twisted crossroads of the stony pavements in her life.

Not even for a fallen angel, whose regrets wouldn't turn back time.

Time is cruel, time is heartless. Time pushes you forward, pulls you through it's tide, whether you're willing or not.

Time makes people forget, time makes people regret.

The past.

Look forward

to the Future.

Time is never present when you wants it most, drags you along when you wants it least.

Why?

Because time teaches us lessons... Appreciate what you have.

For time is all you've got to waste. =)

Candid Shots from Melaka Assignment TRIPO!

2008-11-20T07:35:00.000-08:00

The Bus load filled with people, Owh yeah CD085-1 RAWKIN THE HOUSE YO!

CHEERRSSSSSS PEOPLE!!!!

UNfortunately, we couldn't take the whole lot. There are group pictures of course, i reckoned someone in class must've took it =)

Anyways proceeding on to more candid shots.

The Fat and the Blur.

Yeaps. This proves i need to go on a diet, reallllll bad. Haha! bad angle. shoot!

The next picture is OBVVIOUSLY the most AWESOME of the LOT.

Kevin's PRICELESS expression, and Ivan's INFAMOUS look of sleepiness. Durh!

Did i said this picture is PRICELESS?!??!! HAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHHA!!!!!!

Last but not least.

Me and Jun!

But that's not the Candid Part... Look closely, there at the BACKKK..

Yes good, i think you're getting it?

NOO???

Look CLOSER!

MWAHAHHAHA!

yeah you got it alright.

if you stil don't *sighs* (gives up)

jo and feiYan doing uh.... a lil bit of lovin?

hahaha!

Not to mention a small Chea Wen digging her nose.

=DDDDDDD.

Don't kill me people. I've only got this one life to live! =)

ps- I did post my chubby pict! FAIR AND SQUARE MWAHHAHAHAH!

i think i have more candid pictures... mwahhaha will post more up soon. Searching searching *whistles in a good mood*

Say Ahh to Bubba Gumps.

2008-11-20T07:07:00.000-08:00

Dee-Licious!

Say AHHHH to scrumptious Shrimps and sizzling fried garlic breads, downed with a glass of fresh, cooling, Lemonade.

One word only.

YUMMY!

Yes i notice i'm getting much much chubbier ><
but the temptation of delicious food is just tooooo hard to resist!
How can you be a pure malaysian, without having pure love for Food?

this proves my nationality wey!

Bubbba Gump is situated at the road between Cineplex and The Curve. Plenty of restaurants decorates the sidewalks, and romantic music filled the air, mingling with the delicioous taste of the cooling night air, as the streets are filled with people's loud, excited chattering and the smell of food and spices, bringing on a vacation mood to the bustling scene.

Dinner was on Jonathan Siow! THANK YOU! =DD

There were all kinds of shrimp, from the small, common ones we ate to deep fry palm-size shrimp.

The best part is they're all FRESH and ready to be eaten. =D

The decorations are pretty cool. they have this fancy board in red and blue.

The red says "Stop Forrest Stop" and the blue one says "Run Forrest Run"

Pretty cool!! If you flip over to Stop Forrest Stop, a waiter will immediately arrive at your table, flip the board over, and take your order/

They place everything into a bucket( like those you bring when you go fishing), TObasco sauce, Cilli, Tomato, Pepper and etc.

And they have a basket full of Luxury biscuits, complimentary to take as much as you want.

Finally a little bit of camwhoring before we left with our stomach's bloated up to our necks =D

Ps- The food is rather expensive actually, but it's really a pretty awesome place for a once-in-super-blue-moon dining experience!

Till then See ya!

hm.

2008-11-08T23:00:00.000-08:00

emotions.

wouldn't you agree emotions are a bad thing to have? wouldn't you agree life is constantly unsatisfactory..? filled with ups and downs, one moment you are flying high up in the air, the next you're being forced down into the deep abyss of darkness.

At the point of your life when you think you've got it all, a missing piece arise. a broken part, gone. Shattered.

it makes you wonder in admiration, how Adolf Hitler did it all. Emotionless.

It makes you wonder, how great it would be to be cold, cruel and heartless. To not feel mental pain that is ten times worse then the physical one.

A slap may hurt your face, but that depends on the preson who slapped you.

And if that person, is one of your very love ones, the pain wouldn't be from the phsical action, but rather from the mental bashing.

wouldn't you agree?

if only we love and love and never hurt. =)